[2 shot] Their Point of View - part 2
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ica_90Title: Their Point of View (Part 2)
Author: ica_90
Pairing: Sakuraiba, Aimiya(friendship), Ohmiya, sakumiya(friendship), Yama etc
Genre: light angst
Rating: pg-13
Summary: it is what they thought and what they feel.
Disclaimer: own them not.
Note: this is a sequel to Protector request by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
diahlee486 . i'm sorry if this turns to be worst. for the first part, i'll focus on sakuraiba and aimiya, on 2nd part i'll focus on ohmiya and aimiya and a little sakuraiba. post the 2nd part later on, when i got time.. seriously, this one is really hard to finish. i takes me almost 2 month because i keep deleting fic... -.-" please bear with me ne
(unbeta)
Nino POV
Knowing Aiba, I know he’s lying. He’s unfocused; he looks panic in every gesture he makes. But seeing Sho-chan approaching him before the recording, I think, I can guess the reason why the man is lying.
Before I could think more, a hand lands on my shoulder. I turn to see Oh-chan standing behind me. my heart beats so fast. God, why can’t this love die the moment he hurt me?
“Kazu,”
“It’s Nino, Ohno-san. We’re no longer..”
“Stop,” he cuts me. “Just please don’t say it. It’s hurt,”
I smirk.
“Really? But you never care how hurt I was when I saw what you did that night?”
He didn’t give any answer. And I don’t need one. I just need to get away. In fact, I need to follow my bestfriend, afraid if he will do something stupid.
“I need you… Nino,” I stop from heading to the door. Slowly, I turn to take a look to the older man.
“but I don’t need another hurt, ohno-san,” and then I leave.
***
It’s breaking me hearing Aiba words just now. How could he do so many sacrifices just for me? how could he abandoned his own feeling just because of one man, which is me?
Everything is so clear now, how, why, what is the reason he never wants to get back to Sho-chan, even how much he loves that man.
“Just answer me one thing, Masaki. Just one thing,” Sho pauses. “do you still love me?”
It takes Aiba for a few seconds before he answer it. Simple, yet so hurt to be heard.
“yes,”
“so, why can’t you give me a chance? I know I’ve hurt you before,”
“it’s not that,” Aiba cuts him.
“it is. I know it. I hurt you. I never appreciate you. I forget everything that you do for me. i..”
“all those things you mention Sho-chan… it never affect my loves to you. I always love you. even now..” the last two words more like whisper.
It was an awkward silent. None of the two speaks anything. I was wondering the same thing, when finally Sho asks it.
“so why?”
“being with you… I’ll hurt Nino,”
To be honest, I didn’t see any reason for why I would be hurt if he does so. It hurts me more to see him in this state, hurting for unable to love someone who he loves so much.
I didn’t wait for the two to finish their conversation, I’ll leave him there. knowing Aiba, I know he’ll come straight to me after that. He always did that before. Everytime sho forget their date, forget their important date, come home late for dinner, Aiba always comes to me to talk. I’m sure this time too. And I’ll make sure, I’ll tell him about what I feel if he does so.
I stop halfway as I saw a figure standing infront of my apartment. I don’t need to look at the face. I can tell by his body.
“ohno-san,” he turns.
“Nino.. i..”
“you shouldn’t be here! Aiba-chan will be mad!” I say, displease by his appearence
He didn’t say anything for a moment. He just stares at me. if I didn’t know him, I might call him a creep. Eventhough I’ve received those kind of look before. A lot.
And then he sighs. I didn’t know when he does it, but when I realized it, my back feels hurt, and I was pinned between the wall and his face an inch away from mine. I struggle to break away as he tries to kiss me.
“Stop, Oh-chan! People might see..”
“let people see then! Let people know how much I miss you, how much I love you when you refused to know all that!” he outraged. It is a second later, his lips are on mine.
It hurts. My heart. I feel like crying. I still have my heart on him. I still love him, but deep inside my heart, there is wound from before. The kiss by him never gets a respond from me. I keep on being stiff. A moment later, he stops but he put his forehead on mind.
“why kazu? Why can’t you give me another chance?”
This time, I push him away. Ignoring him for a moment, I open my house door, dragging him inside with me, avoiding from any public eyes or ears from watching or hearing our conversation.
There is a distance between the two of us. I didn’t face him when I ask him.
“Why should I give you one, Oh-chan? You ignore me. You never response whenever I said I love you. And then, you break me. You’re the reason I almost kill myself. Why should I give you one?”
I turn to look at him.
“Why did you do that Satoshi? When you know how much I love you?”
“You neglecting me,”
Excuse me?
“You’ve been so busy, and you start to pay no attention on me. I miss you so much and one day, I can’t hold it anymore. I was curious, if you still love me. And then Sho-kun comes,”
“But that’s not the reason why you should f**k him, Satoshi!” I enraged.
“No, it isn’t. I shouldn’t do that. But I was confused. None of us could think straight. And those things just happened. Like I said, you’re too busy, we spent less time together, so I thought there’s nothing working between us anymore,”
“so now, you’re putting all the blame on me???” I ask, a little fighting inside me.
Or maybe, it is really my fault to begin with?
Ohno POV
No. I’m not blaming him. It was me. I shouldn’t simply jump into a conclusion, thinking he didn’t love me anymore. He loves me; how he nearly kills himself by my doing is the proof. And I’m regretting it.
“Just give me another chance, Nino. I’ll make everything right again,” I don’t know how many time have I said those same things, this time is really a begged. I need him. It feels so empty inside when he leaves.
He didn’t reply. When I look at him, he is looking at his phone, panic.
“You shouldn’t be here!” he says, pushing me to his bedroom. “Aiba-chan is on his way. He’ll be freaking mad to see you here,”
There is a silent moment when we both heard the sound of the door bell ringing. Both of us know who it is.
“Stay here,” is what he says before closing the door, heading to the front door.
“What’s wrong, Aiba-chan?” from the concern in Nino’s voice, I could imagine he’s hugging the taller man. Jealousy hit me. Aiba always has a soft spot in Nino’s heart. Even during our time before.
And then I hear sobbing.
“It hurts. Here,” Aiba-chan says. His words sends shiver all over my body, thinking of the things I’ve done, breaking the heart of two precious persons in my life. My lover and my friend. Am I still can be consider as his friend after all that I do?
I couldn’t hear anything for a moment. Slowly, I open the door, peeking through the small space. What I saw breaks me even more. There they are, nino pampering the taller guy, hugging him while rubbing his back, calming the man.
“it is so hurt, Nino,” but nino didn’t say anything. He keeps on listening to the man.
“I love him, but I can’t be with him,” this time, nino replies.
“Why can’t you?”
“Because I’ve promised to you. I’ve promised that I’ll be your protector. We both promised that. I’ll hurt you if…”
Aiba didn’t continue his next words. None of them speak a word.
“You think you’ll hurt me if you’re going back to Sho-kun?,” he sighs. From the small space between the door, I could see Aiba-chan nods. “You’re wrong.”
Nino let go of the hug. He makes the animal lover to look at him. He looks serious with his lips form a gentle smile, giving a warm to anyone who sees it
“You know what hurt me most? Seeing you like this. Lying to your own heart, telling me you didn’t love him when it’s him you think about all the time,”
“But...”
“no but, Aiba-chan. it’s true. Yes, you’re hurt by his doing. But you know it very well yourself. You love him to one point I think it is stupid. Too stupid indeed. But for me, as long this makes you happy, it doesn’t matter, isn’t it?”
Again, silent fills the room. I could make a guess one of them is hesitate making a decision. Their relation is very beautiful. A bestfriend who protect each other from any form of hurt, even though it’s hurting themselves by doing so.
“Aiba-chan,” nino pauses once. “Am I really a protector of you if all I give to you is a miserable life?”
“But you didn’t…” Nino cuts his words.
“I am now. You keep thinking about me, about hurting me when there’s nothing really does. In the mean time, it’s not me who is hurt. It’s you! so stop. Please. Be honest to your own heart. I’m begging you!” there’s pleaded in his tone. I could sense desperate in his voice too.
Even how brat that man is, Nino is the best when it comes to reading and understanding a situation. I know, there’s a lot of time he had asked sho to make a move, to win Aiba again. But that Sho has lose his confident. I know it. Because I am too.
“Please, Aiba-chan. please go back to him. you have said unnecessary things to him just now. It’s the very same sentences Oh-chan said to me that night. what if he acts the same way like I did before? What if he kills himself? Won’t you regret it?”
Nino pauses once before continue.
“Please, let’s us forget our past. Let’s begin a new one instead. He loves you. Everyone knows it. I beg you. For the sake of our friendship. You. Me. Him. Please,”
It takes Aiba-chan a moment for him to nod, agreeing to Nino’s words. Hugging the taller man, he pats him ensuring that everything will be fine, that he’ll always be whenever Aiba needs him. Seeing this, my heart ache. Not of jealousy, it’s indescribable feeling, wondering if there’ll still at least a tiny spot in his heart. though I know, I don’t deserve it.
I didn’t know when Aiba-chan leaves the house. When I went to the living room, he’s already left, with Nino sitting at the couch, staring at the empty ceiling, as something interest him there.
I didn’t say a word. I keep staring at the man in front me who is now closing his eyes with a trail of tears on his cheeks. I want to hug him; to beg him to come back to me, like he begs Aiba-chan to gives Sho-chan another chance. But knowing I don’t deserves him, I stop, giving up.
Maybe, if I ever get a chance again, I won’t waste him like I did before. Definitely won’t.
“I take my leaves here,” I take my jacket, heading to the door. “please…”
I can’t say my next words, wanting him to have a good day. I choke on my own words.
When I was about to open the door, he calls me soft.
“Satoshi,” I turn. He still there at the couch with his eyes closes. “how will you ensure me that you won’t hurt me again?”
Jun POV
The view that I have when I enter the green room today is the best.
There they were, 4 of them squeezing themselves to fit on the long couch, sleeping. Oh-chan head leans on nino’s shoulder with Nino leans his head on ohno’s. Aiba-chan and Sho-kun as same as the two. Watching this I smile. Everything is back to normal again.
Sho-kun calls me last night, stating how depress he was at the moment. And I spent 15 minutes calming the man via phone. I was about to decide to went to the newscaster house, afraid if he do anything stupid when I heard someone calls him.
“Sho-chan! I’m sorry I said unnecessary things just now. I’m so sorry. I love you. So much. Let’s begin a new life, ne,”
Hearing those words, I know. He’ll be fine. They’ll be fine. I’m not sure about the other two at that moment, but I know they will. I hung up the call.
I walk to the four of them, clapping my hands causing them to wake up.
“Wake up. You guys have 15 minutes before recording. Go get dress,”
Nino and Aiba are the first to stand up, heading to the costume rack. Taking this as an opportunity, I tease the two bestfriend.
“You guys have a weird way of walking. Having a rough night?” I chuckle.
“Shut up!”
“We’re not”
Both Aiba and Nino say in unison earning a laugh from me and small chuckles from the two oldest members.
“you guys, seriously need to control yourself, you know,” I turn to the two older member who is still sitting at the couch. “It’s lucky that they still can walk today,” I keep on teasing before a shirt flew straight to my head.
“stop teasing, baka!” I laugh.
On our way to the studio, I let the two best friend to walk first, before I stop the two oldest member.
“Promise me one thing, please,” the two look at me, giving a small nod. “Promise me that you won’t hurt them again,”
“We won’t,” the two said in unison, confident with their word.
Everything is back to normal again. I’m glad.
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first of all, diah!!! sorry sangat2 kalo menda ni not as what you're expecting. i come out wit a lot of ideas, but i can't write one, until i start writing this.. ngee~~
2nd, thanks for anyone who's reading this. sorry it turns out a little bit crappy here..
Author: ica_90
Pairing: Sakuraiba, Aimiya(friendship), Ohmiya, sakumiya(friendship), Yama etc
Genre: light angst
Rating: pg-13
Summary: it is what they thought and what they feel.
Disclaimer: own them not.
Note: this is a sequel to Protector request by
diahlee486 . i'm sorry if this turns to be worst. for the first part, i'll focus on sakuraiba and aimiya, on 2nd part i'll focus on ohmiya and aimiya and a little sakuraiba. post the 2nd part later on, when i got time.. seriously, this one is really hard to finish. i takes me almost 2 month because i keep deleting fic... -.-" please bear with me ne(unbeta)
Nino POV
Knowing Aiba, I know he’s lying. He’s unfocused; he looks panic in every gesture he makes. But seeing Sho-chan approaching him before the recording, I think, I can guess the reason why the man is lying.
Before I could think more, a hand lands on my shoulder. I turn to see Oh-chan standing behind me. my heart beats so fast. God, why can’t this love die the moment he hurt me?
“Kazu,”
“It’s Nino, Ohno-san. We’re no longer..”
“Stop,” he cuts me. “Just please don’t say it. It’s hurt,”
I smirk.
“Really? But you never care how hurt I was when I saw what you did that night?”
He didn’t give any answer. And I don’t need one. I just need to get away. In fact, I need to follow my bestfriend, afraid if he will do something stupid.
“I need you… Nino,” I stop from heading to the door. Slowly, I turn to take a look to the older man.
“but I don’t need another hurt, ohno-san,” and then I leave.
***
It’s breaking me hearing Aiba words just now. How could he do so many sacrifices just for me? how could he abandoned his own feeling just because of one man, which is me?
Everything is so clear now, how, why, what is the reason he never wants to get back to Sho-chan, even how much he loves that man.
“Just answer me one thing, Masaki. Just one thing,” Sho pauses. “do you still love me?”
It takes Aiba for a few seconds before he answer it. Simple, yet so hurt to be heard.
“yes,”
“so, why can’t you give me a chance? I know I’ve hurt you before,”
“it’s not that,” Aiba cuts him.
“it is. I know it. I hurt you. I never appreciate you. I forget everything that you do for me. i..”
“all those things you mention Sho-chan… it never affect my loves to you. I always love you. even now..” the last two words more like whisper.
It was an awkward silent. None of the two speaks anything. I was wondering the same thing, when finally Sho asks it.
“so why?”
“being with you… I’ll hurt Nino,”
To be honest, I didn’t see any reason for why I would be hurt if he does so. It hurts me more to see him in this state, hurting for unable to love someone who he loves so much.
I didn’t wait for the two to finish their conversation, I’ll leave him there. knowing Aiba, I know he’ll come straight to me after that. He always did that before. Everytime sho forget their date, forget their important date, come home late for dinner, Aiba always comes to me to talk. I’m sure this time too. And I’ll make sure, I’ll tell him about what I feel if he does so.
I stop halfway as I saw a figure standing infront of my apartment. I don’t need to look at the face. I can tell by his body.
“ohno-san,” he turns.
“Nino.. i..”
“you shouldn’t be here! Aiba-chan will be mad!” I say, displease by his appearence
He didn’t say anything for a moment. He just stares at me. if I didn’t know him, I might call him a creep. Eventhough I’ve received those kind of look before. A lot.
And then he sighs. I didn’t know when he does it, but when I realized it, my back feels hurt, and I was pinned between the wall and his face an inch away from mine. I struggle to break away as he tries to kiss me.
“Stop, Oh-chan! People might see..”
“let people see then! Let people know how much I miss you, how much I love you when you refused to know all that!” he outraged. It is a second later, his lips are on mine.
It hurts. My heart. I feel like crying. I still have my heart on him. I still love him, but deep inside my heart, there is wound from before. The kiss by him never gets a respond from me. I keep on being stiff. A moment later, he stops but he put his forehead on mind.
“why kazu? Why can’t you give me another chance?”
This time, I push him away. Ignoring him for a moment, I open my house door, dragging him inside with me, avoiding from any public eyes or ears from watching or hearing our conversation.
There is a distance between the two of us. I didn’t face him when I ask him.
“Why should I give you one, Oh-chan? You ignore me. You never response whenever I said I love you. And then, you break me. You’re the reason I almost kill myself. Why should I give you one?”
I turn to look at him.
“Why did you do that Satoshi? When you know how much I love you?”
“You neglecting me,”
Excuse me?
“You’ve been so busy, and you start to pay no attention on me. I miss you so much and one day, I can’t hold it anymore. I was curious, if you still love me. And then Sho-kun comes,”
“But that’s not the reason why you should f**k him, Satoshi!” I enraged.
“No, it isn’t. I shouldn’t do that. But I was confused. None of us could think straight. And those things just happened. Like I said, you’re too busy, we spent less time together, so I thought there’s nothing working between us anymore,”
“so now, you’re putting all the blame on me???” I ask, a little fighting inside me.
Or maybe, it is really my fault to begin with?
Ohno POV
No. I’m not blaming him. It was me. I shouldn’t simply jump into a conclusion, thinking he didn’t love me anymore. He loves me; how he nearly kills himself by my doing is the proof. And I’m regretting it.
“Just give me another chance, Nino. I’ll make everything right again,” I don’t know how many time have I said those same things, this time is really a begged. I need him. It feels so empty inside when he leaves.
He didn’t reply. When I look at him, he is looking at his phone, panic.
“You shouldn’t be here!” he says, pushing me to his bedroom. “Aiba-chan is on his way. He’ll be freaking mad to see you here,”
There is a silent moment when we both heard the sound of the door bell ringing. Both of us know who it is.
“Stay here,” is what he says before closing the door, heading to the front door.
“What’s wrong, Aiba-chan?” from the concern in Nino’s voice, I could imagine he’s hugging the taller man. Jealousy hit me. Aiba always has a soft spot in Nino’s heart. Even during our time before.
And then I hear sobbing.
“It hurts. Here,” Aiba-chan says. His words sends shiver all over my body, thinking of the things I’ve done, breaking the heart of two precious persons in my life. My lover and my friend. Am I still can be consider as his friend after all that I do?
I couldn’t hear anything for a moment. Slowly, I open the door, peeking through the small space. What I saw breaks me even more. There they are, nino pampering the taller guy, hugging him while rubbing his back, calming the man.
“it is so hurt, Nino,” but nino didn’t say anything. He keeps on listening to the man.
“I love him, but I can’t be with him,” this time, nino replies.
“Why can’t you?”
“Because I’ve promised to you. I’ve promised that I’ll be your protector. We both promised that. I’ll hurt you if…”
Aiba didn’t continue his next words. None of them speak a word.
“You think you’ll hurt me if you’re going back to Sho-kun?,” he sighs. From the small space between the door, I could see Aiba-chan nods. “You’re wrong.”
Nino let go of the hug. He makes the animal lover to look at him. He looks serious with his lips form a gentle smile, giving a warm to anyone who sees it
“You know what hurt me most? Seeing you like this. Lying to your own heart, telling me you didn’t love him when it’s him you think about all the time,”
“But...”
“no but, Aiba-chan. it’s true. Yes, you’re hurt by his doing. But you know it very well yourself. You love him to one point I think it is stupid. Too stupid indeed. But for me, as long this makes you happy, it doesn’t matter, isn’t it?”
Again, silent fills the room. I could make a guess one of them is hesitate making a decision. Their relation is very beautiful. A bestfriend who protect each other from any form of hurt, even though it’s hurting themselves by doing so.
“Aiba-chan,” nino pauses once. “Am I really a protector of you if all I give to you is a miserable life?”
“But you didn’t…” Nino cuts his words.
“I am now. You keep thinking about me, about hurting me when there’s nothing really does. In the mean time, it’s not me who is hurt. It’s you! so stop. Please. Be honest to your own heart. I’m begging you!” there’s pleaded in his tone. I could sense desperate in his voice too.
Even how brat that man is, Nino is the best when it comes to reading and understanding a situation. I know, there’s a lot of time he had asked sho to make a move, to win Aiba again. But that Sho has lose his confident. I know it. Because I am too.
“Please, Aiba-chan. please go back to him. you have said unnecessary things to him just now. It’s the very same sentences Oh-chan said to me that night. what if he acts the same way like I did before? What if he kills himself? Won’t you regret it?”
Nino pauses once before continue.
“Please, let’s us forget our past. Let’s begin a new one instead. He loves you. Everyone knows it. I beg you. For the sake of our friendship. You. Me. Him. Please,”
It takes Aiba-chan a moment for him to nod, agreeing to Nino’s words. Hugging the taller man, he pats him ensuring that everything will be fine, that he’ll always be whenever Aiba needs him. Seeing this, my heart ache. Not of jealousy, it’s indescribable feeling, wondering if there’ll still at least a tiny spot in his heart. though I know, I don’t deserve it.
I didn’t know when Aiba-chan leaves the house. When I went to the living room, he’s already left, with Nino sitting at the couch, staring at the empty ceiling, as something interest him there.
I didn’t say a word. I keep staring at the man in front me who is now closing his eyes with a trail of tears on his cheeks. I want to hug him; to beg him to come back to me, like he begs Aiba-chan to gives Sho-chan another chance. But knowing I don’t deserves him, I stop, giving up.
Maybe, if I ever get a chance again, I won’t waste him like I did before. Definitely won’t.
“I take my leaves here,” I take my jacket, heading to the door. “please…”
I can’t say my next words, wanting him to have a good day. I choke on my own words.
When I was about to open the door, he calls me soft.
“Satoshi,” I turn. He still there at the couch with his eyes closes. “how will you ensure me that you won’t hurt me again?”
Jun POV
The view that I have when I enter the green room today is the best.
There they were, 4 of them squeezing themselves to fit on the long couch, sleeping. Oh-chan head leans on nino’s shoulder with Nino leans his head on ohno’s. Aiba-chan and Sho-kun as same as the two. Watching this I smile. Everything is back to normal again.
Sho-kun calls me last night, stating how depress he was at the moment. And I spent 15 minutes calming the man via phone. I was about to decide to went to the newscaster house, afraid if he do anything stupid when I heard someone calls him.
“Sho-chan! I’m sorry I said unnecessary things just now. I’m so sorry. I love you. So much. Let’s begin a new life, ne,”
Hearing those words, I know. He’ll be fine. They’ll be fine. I’m not sure about the other two at that moment, but I know they will. I hung up the call.
I walk to the four of them, clapping my hands causing them to wake up.
“Wake up. You guys have 15 minutes before recording. Go get dress,”
Nino and Aiba are the first to stand up, heading to the costume rack. Taking this as an opportunity, I tease the two bestfriend.
“You guys have a weird way of walking. Having a rough night?” I chuckle.
“Shut up!”
“We’re not”
Both Aiba and Nino say in unison earning a laugh from me and small chuckles from the two oldest members.
“you guys, seriously need to control yourself, you know,” I turn to the two older member who is still sitting at the couch. “It’s lucky that they still can walk today,” I keep on teasing before a shirt flew straight to my head.
“stop teasing, baka!” I laugh.
On our way to the studio, I let the two best friend to walk first, before I stop the two oldest member.
“Promise me one thing, please,” the two look at me, giving a small nod. “Promise me that you won’t hurt them again,”
“We won’t,” the two said in unison, confident with their word.
Everything is back to normal again. I’m glad.
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first of all, diah!!! sorry sangat2 kalo menda ni not as what you're expecting. i come out wit a lot of ideas, but i can't write one, until i start writing this.. ngee~~
2nd, thanks for anyone who's reading this. sorry it turns out a little bit crappy here..
