-random notes because i just feel like doing it-
so, this is my first aimya ongoing fic, and to be honest, i never have confidence that anyone gonna read it. my mind was doing it with 2 people in my mind which is Diah and Aimi (that two sakuraiba shipper).. weird. i know.
so here's a little background about the story... last time, i wrote a story, not a fanfic but original created character, using the same format. 1st person view but the different is i used it to explain another person relation. means that A is explaining B and C relationship.
and then, i just plot something for sakuraiba, and i was thinking of using the same style. i want to use Nino to explain about Aiba and Sho. but the more i plot, the more it went to Nino 1st view and all his thoughts. in the middle of plotting, it just went "i guess i'm gonna change this to Aimiya with friendship as main theme," and there it goes the whole plot.
when i was plotting the ending, i cried. real cried. like sobbing and liquid came from my nose. i remember waking up with swolen eyes and the heavy feeling in my chest. original plot was i killed Aiba. for the same reason; he's sick, he want to be with Sho, he donate his liver to Sho's sister. and Nino forgive Sho because he feel that he's the reason why Aiba never get his own happiness.
but in the middle to fille the whole plot; hole here and there, i asked again myself, will that really went well with the theme which is friendship? after all, Aiba has do everything to protected Nino but what has Nino done? just yell at sakurai and that's it? around the 6th chapter, i choose to ignore my original plot, and use another ending. yup, Nino died.
but i don't cry that much when i plot the new ending.
and i guess, i just don't forgive people easily. i use to, but somehow nowadays, i hate giving second chance. so i applied it as well in here. so sakuraiba in the end, just don't end together. but everyone expecting a happy ending for Aiba isn't it? hence, i'll just do another one-shot for sakuraiba. this is a promise. and i will try to fulfill it.
i'm just going to apologize about the character going a little off. some people reading fanfic while trying to find the similarities of the fic characters and the original them. but the whole plot itself was already cruel. sho is not that bad, isn't he? and Aiba isn't a surrendering type of person. and Nino.. just Nino (i'm being biased).
and because this is my 1st aimiya fic, i just want it to be perfect. meh.. not really. the fact is not right, i'm not sure. but at least with a better grammar.. so i would like to say thank you to two of my awesome beta,
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icedragontmr and
antimiya88 for their awesome works. really. thank you so much. i wish i could treat you guys some cookies. tell me if we ever get a chance to meet XD
and to the people who has been in my mind
diahlee486 riida91 and
nadzsanz. don't ask me why. you guys just be there while i wrote this whole thing.
and lastly to those people who's been commenting, supporting me to finish this fics, thank you. too all of you
hanarashi bekstakano piggywhale (you've been there, every chapter and i'm really happy. thank you.)
aoisoranohikari lianoyume j_sei dn_nura natsurin yamapi_0409 perkyandproud reyahh321 masakidotkom miyawoks thanks a lot for the comments. it's a support for me to finish this.
just thank you. i don't know what else to say.
i'm in love with this fic. maybe will be one of my favourite,after Ohmiya fic "their Jealousy".. thanks everyone :))
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