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I'm not at home at the moment. for a week. i have work, a very important one, related to my country for now. lol. i'm exagerrating. sorry

but a few days ago, i received a few email notificating me that my fics were nominated for the fanfic award. i've read through the list, though to list it down here means i have to have a lot of time now. the thing is i don't. lol

All the things i wanna say is, forever who nominated me for the award, thank you very much. to be able to make it to the list, eventhough it was longlisted, is a very great pleasure to me. i didn't expected to get nominated either because 1) i barely remember what i wrote last year, 2) i don't think i leave an impact. one thing that dissapoint me is there is one fic i hope to get nominated, but it don't. but nevermind. i just hope people to enjoy them now.

among the list, there's 2-3 fics that i decided to drop them out. like i said, it's not worth enough. please don't get me wrong. you can still read them here, but i don't want it to be listed there. it took me a few times of consideration, and i've decided them now.

once again, thank you for nominating me. it's indeed a happiness :)

cause I am wondering this while updating the last few chapter here.

how will Arashi ...no... i mean the idols react when they read the fanfic about them.

cause i'm writing one, and i was suddenly wondering what will nino thought if he reads the fanfic about him :p f course it's impossible for him to read one due to his schedule and *coughlackenglishreadingcough* <---obviously my image on japanese.. gomen.

just, i've been wondering....

:P

so.. it was gone. my mood. -.-" i'm still trying to find a plane so that i can catch that flying mood.

with that, i might take a long break because of this. that includes posting the current fic.

tbh, i have wrote the fic, but my beta told me that the plot went to fast. so i tried to re-write it. i've finished writing but i don't have the mood to post. so, i'm gonna delay it. sorry for my selfish decision.

with that, i will take my long break and come back on may, after Nanocamp.

see ya and sorry :(

ah. well, 10 of my fics were nominated for the Arashi fanfiction award and i'm truly glad of it. i never have much confidence tbh and having the fic nominated makes me happy. so much. for doing that, thank you.

i don't hope to be shortlisted. there are many great fics out there and i've started reading one by one. but for the things the readers have done for me, thank you, i truly appreciate it.

10 fics are : (direct copy from arafanficaward )
5 Times Arashi Play Banana and It Ends With Confessions – Best Crack, Best OT5
Facebook Love – Best Ohmiya, Best Romance
His Present For Me – Best Angst, Best One-shot
I’ll Go Ahead, Will Wait For You There – Best Ohmiya
Love At The Last Moment – Best Angst
Love Potion – Best Sakuraiba
Maybe A Goodbye – Best Ohmiya, Best Drama
The Last Promise – Best Aimiya, Best Friendship
What We Lost – Best Ohmiya, Best Angst
Winning Him Back – Best Ohmiya, Best Series

and also i was longlisted for best author??? O.O i'm far from that. but again, this is among the thing i'm grateful of, people appreciate what i am doing, thank you.

maybe i won't be writing fanfic for long, i won't write this forever. but i will try my best to write one. thanks again.

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on addition, to the anon who copied my fic to ja-meme. i love you. really. because i have this habit you know, the more annoying people are annoyed of me, the more i will do to make them annoyed. and you gave me ideas, so why not?

once again, i love you!

-random notes because i just feel like doing it-

so, this is my first aimya ongoing fic, and to be honest, i never have confidence that anyone gonna read it. my mind was doing it with 2 people in my mind which is Diah and Aimi (that two sakuraiba shipper).. weird. i know.

so here's a little background about the story... last time, i wrote a story, not a fanfic but original created character, using the same format. 1st person view but the different is i used it to explain another person relation. means that A is explaining B and C relationship.

and then, i just plot something for sakuraiba, and i was thinking of using the same style. i want to use Nino to explain about Aiba and Sho. but the more i plot, the more it went to Nino 1st view and all his thoughts. in the middle of plotting, it just went "i guess i'm gonna change this to Aimiya with friendship as main theme," and there it goes the whole plot.

when i was plotting the ending, i cried. real cried. like sobbing and liquid came from my nose. i remember waking up with swolen eyes and the heavy feeling in my chest. original plot was i killed Aiba. for the same reason; he's sick, he want to be with Sho, he donate his liver to Sho's sister. and Nino forgive Sho because he feel that he's the reason why Aiba never get his own happiness.

but in the middle to fille the whole plot; hole here and there, i asked again myself, will that really went well with the theme which is friendship? after all, Aiba has do everything to protected Nino but what has Nino done? just yell at sakurai and that's it? around the 6th chapter, i choose to ignore my original plot, and use another ending. yup, Nino died.

but i don't cry that much when i plot the new ending.

and i guess, i just don't forgive people easily. i use to, but somehow nowadays, i hate giving second chance. so i applied it as well in here. so sakuraiba in the end, just don't end together. but everyone expecting a happy ending for Aiba isn't it? hence, i'll just do another one-shot for sakuraiba. this is a promise. and i will try to fulfill it.

i'm just going to apologize about the character going a little off. some people reading fanfic while trying to find the similarities of the fic characters and the original them. but the whole plot itself was already cruel. sho is not that bad, isn't he? and Aiba isn't a surrendering type of person. and Nino.. just Nino (i'm being biased).

and because this is my 1st aimiya fic, i just want it to be perfect. meh.. not really. the fact is not right, i'm not sure. but at least with a better grammar.. so i would like to say thank you to two of my awesome beta, icedragontmr and antimiya88 for their awesome works. really. thank you so much. i wish i could treat you guys some cookies. tell me if we ever get a chance to meet XD

and to the people who has been in my mind diahlee486 riida91 and nadzsanz. don't ask me why. you guys just be there while i wrote this whole thing.

and lastly to those people who's been commenting, supporting me to finish this fics, thank you. too all of you hanarashi bekstakano piggywhale (you've been there, every chapter and i'm really happy. thank you.) aoisoranohikari lianoyume j_sei dn_nura natsurin yamapi_0409 perkyandproud reyahh321 masakidotkom miyawoks thanks a lot for the comments. it's a support for me to finish this.

just thank you. i don't know what else to say.

i'm in love with this fic. maybe will be one of my favourite,after Ohmiya fic "their Jealousy".. thanks everyone :))

two pairing that i didn't ship is Juntoshi and Yama. i didn't ship Yama because they look mature. and my thought on every pairing that i can go along with must be cute *i don't think people understand what i'm trying to tell here* while for juntoshi.... maaa.... maaa... i don't know why, i'm not fond of this two pairing. ngee... but if you wanna ship this two, douzo, but i'm not joining the conversation..
between, this is my own thought on every pairing.


i guess, the trend of my fic for every pairing, always be the same. i can't take the image away from my head.

ps: i'm being random here