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ica_90Title: Love at the Last Moment 7/?
Author: ica_90
Lenght: Drabble and Ongoing
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: 3 months left.. within this 3 months, he loves him once again.
Disclaimer: never own them~~ *dissapoints*
Since the day I told him that I resign from my position, Nino starts to deviate from me. most of the time, he keeps himself inside the room, sitting by the window or if he has the mood, he’ll walks to the balcony to have a sit there, watching the scenery by himself.
I know he has lose his appetite. but I know him well. He didn’t want to disappoint me, hence he ate the food, even a little. even though he end up hurting himself throwing out the food.
He talks less too, and I find it hard to understand him anymore. every single things I ask him, will be return by a single word answer, or sometimes never receives any reply at all.
He avoids any contact with me. he didn’t allow me to touch him or even staying in the same room at night. Somehow I wonder, will I be able to love him like before?
“I think, it’s better for me to go back to the hospital,” he begins one night while watching me washing all the dishes. I stop, turn around to have a proper look of him.
“what- why? i mean..”
“I don’t want to burden you forever,” he cuts me.
“you didn’t, kazu. You never be a burden for me,”
He let out sarcastic chuckles.
“how can I believe that words when you resign from your work? to take care of me?”
“that’s-“
“don’t deny it, oh-chan. how long are you going to pretend like this is fine for you while it’s not? I’ve cause you to lost the girl that you love, I cause you to resign from your job. I’ve made you take care of me. and you still say that I’m not a burden to you? are you sure?” he smirks.
This time, I had enough.
I finish washing the dishes first, ignoring his question just now. And once I done, I turn to look at him, who smirks is still there on his face.
“are you playing with me?”
His smirk fades.
“playing?”
“yeah. Playing with me because of what I’ve did to you before. You’re playing all this annoying acts again and again,”
“and there you admit that I’m annoying,” he smirks again.
“you always annoying Ninomiya,”
“so that’s why you lost your interested in me last time. because I am annoying, and you’ve find someone who’s not. You fell in love with her, and you start to not loving me anymore. I’ve get it,”
I sigh.
“what should I do, Nino? You told me, you want to spend your time here, spend your time with me. why are you doing this? What should I do, to show you that I’m sincerely want you to be here, next to me. sincerely take care of you? how can I show you all that?”
“nothing,” he turns his look away from me. “I told you before right? I don’t want you to stay if you don’t sincerely love me,”
“I sincerely love you now, Ninomiya. What-“
“you’re not! What you’re doing now is not because you love me. you’re doing it because you feel guilty. Guilty of what you did. And you pity at me,”
Silent.
“you’re not denying it,”
“there’s no point of denying. It’s true after all,”
He smiles faintly.
“that’s all I need to hear,” he stands, walking slowly away from the kitchen. I follow him.
“I don’t know. I feel confuse. I want to love you again. I want to love you deeply like before. But i don’t know why. I can’t,”
“it’s good,” he replies. I could see tears welling up his eyes. “let’s stay this way then,”
He says, closing his bedroom door, leaving me outside.
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Author: ica_90
Lenght: Drabble and Ongoing
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: 3 months left.. within this 3 months, he loves him once again.
Disclaimer: never own them~~ *dissapoints*
Since the day I told him that I resign from my position, Nino starts to deviate from me. most of the time, he keeps himself inside the room, sitting by the window or if he has the mood, he’ll walks to the balcony to have a sit there, watching the scenery by himself.
I know he has lose his appetite. but I know him well. He didn’t want to disappoint me, hence he ate the food, even a little. even though he end up hurting himself throwing out the food.
He talks less too, and I find it hard to understand him anymore. every single things I ask him, will be return by a single word answer, or sometimes never receives any reply at all.
He avoids any contact with me. he didn’t allow me to touch him or even staying in the same room at night. Somehow I wonder, will I be able to love him like before?
“I think, it’s better for me to go back to the hospital,” he begins one night while watching me washing all the dishes. I stop, turn around to have a proper look of him.
“what- why? i mean..”
“I don’t want to burden you forever,” he cuts me.
“you didn’t, kazu. You never be a burden for me,”
He let out sarcastic chuckles.
“how can I believe that words when you resign from your work? to take care of me?”
“that’s-“
“don’t deny it, oh-chan. how long are you going to pretend like this is fine for you while it’s not? I’ve cause you to lost the girl that you love, I cause you to resign from your job. I’ve made you take care of me. and you still say that I’m not a burden to you? are you sure?” he smirks.
This time, I had enough.
I finish washing the dishes first, ignoring his question just now. And once I done, I turn to look at him, who smirks is still there on his face.
“are you playing with me?”
His smirk fades.
“playing?”
“yeah. Playing with me because of what I’ve did to you before. You’re playing all this annoying acts again and again,”
“and there you admit that I’m annoying,” he smirks again.
“you always annoying Ninomiya,”
“so that’s why you lost your interested in me last time. because I am annoying, and you’ve find someone who’s not. You fell in love with her, and you start to not loving me anymore. I’ve get it,”
I sigh.
“what should I do, Nino? You told me, you want to spend your time here, spend your time with me. why are you doing this? What should I do, to show you that I’m sincerely want you to be here, next to me. sincerely take care of you? how can I show you all that?”
“nothing,” he turns his look away from me. “I told you before right? I don’t want you to stay if you don’t sincerely love me,”
“I sincerely love you now, Ninomiya. What-“
“you’re not! What you’re doing now is not because you love me. you’re doing it because you feel guilty. Guilty of what you did. And you pity at me,”
Silent.
“you’re not denying it,”
“there’s no point of denying. It’s true after all,”
He smiles faintly.
“that’s all I need to hear,” he stands, walking slowly away from the kitchen. I follow him.
“I don’t know. I feel confuse. I want to love you again. I want to love you deeply like before. But i don’t know why. I can’t,”
“it’s good,” he replies. I could see tears welling up his eyes. “let’s stay this way then,”
He says, closing his bedroom door, leaving me outside.
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