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ica_90Title: Love at the Last Moment 12/12
Author: ica_90
Lenght: Drabble and Ongoing
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: 3 months left.. within this 3 months, he loves him once again.
Disclaimer: no.. don't own them... urghhh
(unbetaed)
Previous entry : // 1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 8 // 9 // 10 // 11//
Ohno POV
When I wake up the next morning, there’s nothing change. He’s still unconscious.
Sho-kun stays in the room with us. I beg from Aiba-sensei to let him. I’m sure Nino wants it to. Nino’s mum went back home last night, telling she’ll come again today. Maybe that’s the best.
“Sho-kun,” I wake up the man. “take care of him for a while ne. I’m going to the café downstairs. Would you like anything?” he shakes his head. I just nod, acknowledge his answer.
I’ll come back, Kazu. I’ll leave just for a while. Wait for me,” I said to the motionless body on the bed before dropping a kiss on the man temple
Along my way to the café, yesterday conversation with Nino’s mum keeps replaying in my mind.
“I know it’s hard for you, Satoshi-kun. but, I can’t bear watching my son being keep in that state. The more he stay that way, I think it’s torturing him,”
I keep on being silent, letting her to tell me what she wants to.
“let him go. Please. It’s true that I hold the right to tell them to let him go. But I can’t do it without you agreeing,”
What should I tell her? for me, as long as he’s breathing, his heart beating, he is living. I feel like killing him if I tell her it’s fine to let him go.
But maybe, I only be a selfish jerk. Deep inside me, I hope that a miracle would occur, that he’ll wake up, and with a smile he’ll say he’s fine.
But hope remains hope.
I was at the counter, ready to pay whatever I have in my hand when my phone vibrates inside my pocket. I quickly take it out to see Sho-kun’s name appear on the screen.
I know it’s an emergency. I didn’t need to answer to know. but I did.
“Ohno-san, Kazu…” but I didn’t let him finish.
I said a “sorry to the cashier as putting all the stuff I take there, before run back to the ward. This is the end. I know it. But I didn’t expect it will happen now. Not when I’m not ready yet to let him go.
“I will leave, when I’m ready to let you go,”
Of course I’m not leaving just now to let him go. Kazu, what have you’ve been thinking?
As I arrived the room, I could heard the sound of the life machine beeping a constant vigorous rhythm. I could see how the medical team struggling, performing CPR to save him. but deep inside me, I know, there’s no possible way for him to stay alive.
He has reach his limit.
I turn to look at Nino’s mum. She didn’t say a word, but I can see plead in her eyes. Of course, there’s no mother in the world would want to see her child to stay in the vegetative state forever. And the fact that they performing CPR on him now, if they keep on doing that, he’ll break his rib. Another way to torture him.
I turn my sight to Sho-kun, a guy who loves my Nino. The one who deserve the right to love him but he didn’t get a chance to do. He’s crying. So hard that somehow, seeing that hurts me so much. He then turn his face too me, mouthing an “onegai”.
I close my eyes. I’m not sure if my whole sense is with me when I start speaking.
“Stop,” before I know all eyes is on me. I look at Nino’s mum. “ask them to stop. It’s ok to let him go,”
I make my step towards the lying body on the bed. Slowly I took a seat next to the bed before taking the man’s hand into mine.
“you’re unfair. So unfair. You didn’t even tell me yet that you love me, Kazu. You let Sho-kun knows that you love me, but not me. you’re so unfair,”
I heard a sound of the door closing behind me, but I don’t bother to see who has leave the room. I could see Aiba-sensei standing opposite me, speechless. Again I don’t bother them.
“you leave while I’m not around you, kazu. Haven’t I told you to wait? Didn’t I tell you that I’ll come back? Yet you still trying to leave while I’m not around,”
For the next few moment, I could only sob. I’ve choked on my own words, unable to continue. But I have to. There’s too many has leaves unspoken.
“I’m not ready to let you go, Kazu. But I think that I already hurt you enough. I’ll hurt you more if you keep in this state. I think it’s fine for you to go,”
I kiss his hand once.
“I love you, Kazu. I will keep loving you. even if you no longer be next to me. I’ll miss your smile, your smirk, your prank. Everything. I‘ll miss you,”
As I finish those words, I hear the long beep sound. I know he has leaved me now. And there’s no way he’ll come back to me.
“Ninomiya Kazunari. Time of death: 10.45am,” is what I heard Aiba-sensei has said.
I kiss the younger one forehead one last time. Maybe it’s too hard for me to accept the fact that he’s gone, I collapsed to the room floor.
****
I smile looking at the woman who’s walking opposite my way.
“You here every day, Satoshi-kun. Aren’t you tired?” I let out a small laughs
“I haven’t been here for quite a time, Ninomiya-san. It happens that I’m around when you’re here,” she smiles. Somehow, her attention is on the woman standing besides me.
“Your wife?” she asks.
“I’m sorry. This is Yuna-chan, my wife. And this is my son, Kazunari,” she smiles at both of them. “I’m sorry that..”
“you use his name? you don’t have to feel sorry, Satoshi-kun. you keep your promise to him. that’s enough for me,”
“yeah…”
“I need to go. Well if you have sometimes, drop by my house will you? maybe we can have some meal together. You too, Yuna-chan. it has been a long time a small child in the house,”
I just let a simple nod. She must be missing her son a lot. I let her pass first before keep on walking to the top of the hill. And then I feel a hand grabbing mine.
“gomen ne, Yuna,” I begin. She shakes her head.
“there’s nothing for you to say sorry. I’m happy to have you in my life, Satoshi-kun,”
“But..”
“he’s your first love. And because of him, I’m sure it’s because of him, you learn to love me, appreciate me as someone who love you. I should thank him for that,”
I keep on being silent, before she drop a kiss on my lips. I look at her once, before taking her hand, entangles our finger together, heading to ‘meet’ Nino somewhere at the top of this hill.
“for the last moment you had with me, kazu, Thank you. you teach me love and I won’t forget you,”
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that's the end. gomen ne minna if you hope for him to stay alive. and sorry if you didn't like the ending..
i'm taking request. if you have a prompt, do comment at the request post..
once again, thanks for following this story. :)
Author: ica_90
Lenght: Drabble and Ongoing
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: 3 months left.. within this 3 months, he loves him once again.
Disclaimer: no.. don't own them... urghhh
(unbetaed)
Previous entry : // 1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 8 // 9 // 10 // 11//
Ohno POV
When I wake up the next morning, there’s nothing change. He’s still unconscious.
Sho-kun stays in the room with us. I beg from Aiba-sensei to let him. I’m sure Nino wants it to. Nino’s mum went back home last night, telling she’ll come again today. Maybe that’s the best.
“Sho-kun,” I wake up the man. “take care of him for a while ne. I’m going to the café downstairs. Would you like anything?” he shakes his head. I just nod, acknowledge his answer.
I’ll come back, Kazu. I’ll leave just for a while. Wait for me,” I said to the motionless body on the bed before dropping a kiss on the man temple
Along my way to the café, yesterday conversation with Nino’s mum keeps replaying in my mind.
“I know it’s hard for you, Satoshi-kun. but, I can’t bear watching my son being keep in that state. The more he stay that way, I think it’s torturing him,”
I keep on being silent, letting her to tell me what she wants to.
“let him go. Please. It’s true that I hold the right to tell them to let him go. But I can’t do it without you agreeing,”
What should I tell her? for me, as long as he’s breathing, his heart beating, he is living. I feel like killing him if I tell her it’s fine to let him go.
But maybe, I only be a selfish jerk. Deep inside me, I hope that a miracle would occur, that he’ll wake up, and with a smile he’ll say he’s fine.
But hope remains hope.
I was at the counter, ready to pay whatever I have in my hand when my phone vibrates inside my pocket. I quickly take it out to see Sho-kun’s name appear on the screen.
I know it’s an emergency. I didn’t need to answer to know. but I did.
“Ohno-san, Kazu…” but I didn’t let him finish.
I said a “sorry to the cashier as putting all the stuff I take there, before run back to the ward. This is the end. I know it. But I didn’t expect it will happen now. Not when I’m not ready yet to let him go.
“I will leave, when I’m ready to let you go,”
Of course I’m not leaving just now to let him go. Kazu, what have you’ve been thinking?
As I arrived the room, I could heard the sound of the life machine beeping a constant vigorous rhythm. I could see how the medical team struggling, performing CPR to save him. but deep inside me, I know, there’s no possible way for him to stay alive.
He has reach his limit.
I turn to look at Nino’s mum. She didn’t say a word, but I can see plead in her eyes. Of course, there’s no mother in the world would want to see her child to stay in the vegetative state forever. And the fact that they performing CPR on him now, if they keep on doing that, he’ll break his rib. Another way to torture him.
I turn my sight to Sho-kun, a guy who loves my Nino. The one who deserve the right to love him but he didn’t get a chance to do. He’s crying. So hard that somehow, seeing that hurts me so much. He then turn his face too me, mouthing an “onegai”.
I close my eyes. I’m not sure if my whole sense is with me when I start speaking.
“Stop,” before I know all eyes is on me. I look at Nino’s mum. “ask them to stop. It’s ok to let him go,”
I make my step towards the lying body on the bed. Slowly I took a seat next to the bed before taking the man’s hand into mine.
“you’re unfair. So unfair. You didn’t even tell me yet that you love me, Kazu. You let Sho-kun knows that you love me, but not me. you’re so unfair,”
I heard a sound of the door closing behind me, but I don’t bother to see who has leave the room. I could see Aiba-sensei standing opposite me, speechless. Again I don’t bother them.
“you leave while I’m not around you, kazu. Haven’t I told you to wait? Didn’t I tell you that I’ll come back? Yet you still trying to leave while I’m not around,”
For the next few moment, I could only sob. I’ve choked on my own words, unable to continue. But I have to. There’s too many has leaves unspoken.
“I’m not ready to let you go, Kazu. But I think that I already hurt you enough. I’ll hurt you more if you keep in this state. I think it’s fine for you to go,”
I kiss his hand once.
“I love you, Kazu. I will keep loving you. even if you no longer be next to me. I’ll miss your smile, your smirk, your prank. Everything. I‘ll miss you,”
As I finish those words, I hear the long beep sound. I know he has leaved me now. And there’s no way he’ll come back to me.
“Ninomiya Kazunari. Time of death: 10.45am,” is what I heard Aiba-sensei has said.
I kiss the younger one forehead one last time. Maybe it’s too hard for me to accept the fact that he’s gone, I collapsed to the room floor.
****
I smile looking at the woman who’s walking opposite my way.
“You here every day, Satoshi-kun. Aren’t you tired?” I let out a small laughs
“I haven’t been here for quite a time, Ninomiya-san. It happens that I’m around when you’re here,” she smiles. Somehow, her attention is on the woman standing besides me.
“Your wife?” she asks.
“I’m sorry. This is Yuna-chan, my wife. And this is my son, Kazunari,” she smiles at both of them. “I’m sorry that..”
“you use his name? you don’t have to feel sorry, Satoshi-kun. you keep your promise to him. that’s enough for me,”
“yeah…”
“I need to go. Well if you have sometimes, drop by my house will you? maybe we can have some meal together. You too, Yuna-chan. it has been a long time a small child in the house,”
I just let a simple nod. She must be missing her son a lot. I let her pass first before keep on walking to the top of the hill. And then I feel a hand grabbing mine.
“gomen ne, Yuna,” I begin. She shakes her head.
“there’s nothing for you to say sorry. I’m happy to have you in my life, Satoshi-kun,”
“But..”
“he’s your first love. And because of him, I’m sure it’s because of him, you learn to love me, appreciate me as someone who love you. I should thank him for that,”
I keep on being silent, before she drop a kiss on my lips. I look at her once, before taking her hand, entangles our finger together, heading to ‘meet’ Nino somewhere at the top of this hill.
“for the last moment you had with me, kazu, Thank you. you teach me love and I won’t forget you,”
______________________________________________________________________
that's the end. gomen ne minna if you hope for him to stay alive. and sorry if you didn't like the ending..
i'm taking request. if you have a prompt, do comment at the request post..
once again, thanks for following this story. :)
