[Oneshot] His Present for Me - Ohmiya
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ica_90Title: His Present for Me
Author: ica_90
Pairing: Ohmiya, Sakumiya (one-sided)
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: his feeling always be one-sided. Until another person came into their relation, he finally realized his feeling for him
A/N: unbeta. Written for Nino’s birthday, and no, I’m not satisfied with this one. so, I wrote another one. happy birthday brat!! thanks to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
iloveohmiya and nino1711azuki for the encouragement and the bet XD
Nino POV
His birthday was 7 Month Ago. His “I think we should take a break” happened a year before.
Before I knew, the two of us start to take our own way. Or so I thought.
I heard his word very clear, that when he asked for a break, I stop everything with him. The skinship, the talk, and the lovely chat we used to have. But to be honest, I never understand what the ‘break’ he needed from me is.
We’re friend. For him. I love him more than he knows, more than it should be. But I never confessed afraid that it will break the harmony within the group. Hence, I keep it inside me, knowing it slowly eating me.
He didn’t care that much I guess. The distance we created make me realized that my existence is not that important to the man named Ohno Satoshi. Maybe for him, my presence is just the same as the other member presence. Oh god. Do you know how much I want to scream to his ear about how I weep at night, thinking about my unrequited love to him?
And his action hurts me. What with that “we should take a break” when he begin another fanservice with either Jun-kun or Sho-kun? Is he trying to tell me that he has a heart on either the two man? The thought had killed me, literally.
And 7 month ago, i thought that reality has slapped me. A real slapped when I sent him a message, wishing him a happy birthday. The message was plain. Just like how a friend sent to his friend just to wish him a happy birthday, hoping for his great health and success. But 15 second after I hit sent, a message arrived.
“The message was undelivered. The mail is no longer in used,” was what written on my phone screen. I double, triple check the mail I entered. I’m sure I had entered a right mail. But before I could press the send button, something snapped inside my head.
He had changed his mail without telling me about it.
Indeed, my present wasn’t worth enough for him.
I enter our greenroom by the very next morning, only to see a plain smile from the older man who was sitting at our usual couch. I frown, unsure of what I should do next. After about a minutes standing at the door, deliberating where I should head to, I make my step towards him but never bother to take a seat next to him. Instead, I stand facing him. Trying to hide my nervousness, I started to speak.
“Happy birthday, Leader,” he smiled, lifting his head facing me.
“Thank you,” he replied. That’s it? I thought in my head.
“Sorry I didn’t wished you last night. I did actually but it said that the mail was no longer in used,” he looked at me with that innocent look. But before he could say a word, Jun cut him.
“Wait. Don’t you know he has changed his mail?”
Just as I thought.
“I didn’t know,” I replied short. What is this hurt inside me?
“Gomen, I just forgot to tell you. Gomen ne, Nino,” I shook my head as he apologizing. Trying to hide my heartache, I fake a smile. It formed a smirk though.
“Seriously Riida? How can every one of us know about your new mail, but not Nino,” for god sake, I wish Aiba-chan didn’t involved in the conversation. It makes everything awkward than ever.
“I just forget to tell him. When I told you guys about it, he’s not around,” he explained with a pout.
“It’s ok,” I replied. This need to stop. He makes everything clear now. Maybe I should stop thinking about how best friend we are. It’s obvious; it’s only me who think of that. And I shouldn’t hope either that one day he’ll see me the way I look at him. He will never see it.
“Really guys. It’s Ok,” I repeat as I sense the curious look from the member. “This old man just turned 33. He started to forget things. What?”
I asked when I saw him throw me a confused look.
“oh. It’s ok. nevermind. I’m fine. Just tell me your mail when you’re free later. Okay?” and then I moved to one corner of the room, pulling out the DS from my bag, start to play it.
The empty couch looked so lonely when it’s filled only by him. but I don’t care.
Because he simply don’t care as well.
OHNO POV
“do you know, sometimes the words ‘oh’ has another meaning as well?”
Sho-kun asked me all of sudden as he played with his smartphone.
“Really?” I replied lazily. “For example?”
“For example….” Sho paused for a moment. “The way Nino replied just now,”
I turn to look at the man who was standing next to him in the elevator.
“What do you mean?”
“hahahah. Don’t mind me. I just think of something while reading this. They said the word is telling you that ‘my heart just got ripped into a million pieces but I won’t tell you because you wouldn’t care how much I feel anyway’. Somehow… it sounded sad isn’t it?”
I didn’t reply. I couldn’t. Because I don’t have an idea of what I should say.
Did Nino hurt? Just because I didn’t tell him my new mail? Isn’t that childish?
“Let say if I decided to treat all member to dinner but not you, what will you feel?” Sho asked.
“Of course I feel sad. Like did I do something wrong? Why is it you treating me differently from others?”
“That’s what he feel now I guess. But, you know Nino. He didn’t really tell,”
Silent.
“Did something happened between you two? You guys seem distance,”
And again, I have no answer for the question.
Maybe I have. The two of us has grown up, that I feel that fan service is an embarrassing thing to do. Maybe I was thinking too much about future. That I feel embarrassed if one day my son browse through the old clip of Arashi and see all the Ohmiya fan service we’ve been doing back then.
“Leader,” Sho-kun called me, stopping me from continuing all the thought inside my head.
“Hmm?”
“What do you think of Nino?’ I widen my eyes to the sudden question.
“What? – i- friend, maybe?” I answer, hesitate. “What’s with that question?”
And then I saw the brightest smile from Sho-kun.
“Really? is that so? Jaa… maybe I still have a chance,”
“Chance? What are you talking about?”
Sho then makes me face him. his smile didn’t leave his face.
“You don’t have to worry now, Ohno-kun. I’ll make him stop loving you. I will make sure that he’ll be happy with me instead,”
“That’s so frank of you!” I tried to laugh. It sounds fake though. Only god knows how grateful I am as we reached the 5th floor and the lift door open. I make my step as fast as possible away from the man when Sho yelled from behind.
“I mean, it better that way right? Making him stop loving you will stop his sorrows. I’ll give him the love he deserve instead,”
Nino loved me?
“What the hell are you talking about?”
Sho laughed.
“it’s Ok, Ohno-kun. Rest assured. I’m glad that you didn’t have feeling for him. you shouldn’t be worried from now on. I’ll take care of him,” Sho smiled before make his step away from me, heading home maybe.
For some reason, his words annoy me.
But then here I realized. The distance we created has widened even more.
He didn’t talk about the mail issues anymore. It seems like he stopped bothering about me. It was one week later when I finally approached him again and decided to tell him my new mail.
“Really, you shouldn’t care about it Riida. Our senpai didn’t have each other number as well, yet they still work fine. Don’t worry about it,” he said, it sound sarcasm to me.
“In case of emergency,” I replied short, pouting.
“Well if you say so…” and he type it lazily before took his leave there, joining Sho for dinner.
For a few months, I felt like I have lost something in my life. I never felt it before, maybe because the selfish part of me know, no matter how bad I treated him, he’ll be there for me. I was wrong. He’s not there. The couch usually filled by us every morning was an empty space now.
And when I tried to begin the relation between us again, he simply pushed me away. As much as it hurts me when he did that, the way he throw Sho-kun a shy smile hurts me more.
There’s a new question exist in my life now. If Nino was just a friend to me, what with this hurt when I saw him happy with someone else?
Have I fall in love with him as well?
*****
Nino POV
And all of sudden, he started become clingy to me. What the hell is wrong with that ojiisan? Where is his ‘I think we should take a break’ thing go?’ he didn’t even say “we should start it again”. What the hell is wrong with him?
And Sho-kun started to act all weird too. He put extra attention on me. Not that he ever did it before, but still… it’s weird.
And the weirdest thing is when he tries to plan for a birthday party for me.
“I hate one, remember,” I remind him. He laughed.
“I know. So, I’ll end that plan. But you have to free your schedule today because I’m going to treat you for your birthday,”
“That sounds better. What should I give you in return?”
That smirk on Sho-kun face looks weird to me as well.
“A kiss is fine,”
Ahhh… my bandmate has started acting weird again. What on earth is happening?
OHNO POV
Nino looked troubled when I entered the greenroom that morning. I could see he’s struggling to pass the level, I’m not sure if the level is too high for his standard or he just lost his focus.
But I didn’t bother by that. Blame Sho sakurai for that.
It’s not that I want to hear the conversation between the two members. I accidently heard them talking before I walk into the room this morning, and I continued on hearing it. And it kinda pissed me off when I heard the way Sho talk to Nino.
A kiss? How pervert that man can be? Is he trying to use Nino for something?
I walk toward the gamer who I can see frown on his face. He looks troubled; I’m not sure if it is because of the game or because of Sho-kun. Minding the distance between us last time, I took my seat next to him at the empty couch.
“Oh, leader…” he acknowledges my presence, though I can see he’s startled by it. “Sorry, I didn’t hear you walk in,”
“Of course. You just absorbed with your game,” I replied, causing him to give me a plain smile. He continued playing with his game after that and me unconsciously lean my head on his shoulders, something that I usually do before.
It didn’t stay long however, when he stand up, looking confused as ever.
“gomen,” he said short. “i… I need to go. Sho-kun…”
“You had a date with him?” it sounds like a question, though I’m sure it is more to a statement. “Are you guys really dating?”
For a moment, Nino didn’t reply me.
“It’s ok. You don’t have to answer that, Nino,” I bite my lower lips. “It’s your birthday tomorrow right? Do you need anything for your birthday present?”
I tried to sound as cheerful as I can. But I’m sure he notice the nervousness in my voice.
“Nothing particular actually,” he paused. “Though… I thought on asking you to return back the key to my house,”
I widen my eyes.
“What? Why?” the question sounds stupid. I know it. I see him give me a ‘you’re unbelievable’ face.
“I don’t see any good excuse for you to have it now. You never come to my house before. And we’re not sharing it. And with the situation between us now, I don’t think that you’ll come either,”
The two of us fell silent right after he finished his words. For a while, we keep staring at each other, until he break our eye contact, sighing.
“Sometimes I feel cheap,” he begins. “I don’t know why I am giving everything to you when I couldn’t see a single hope from you,”
I frown.
“You will never understand ne, Oh-chan,” he chuckled, giving me a hurtful stare. “I thought that if I wait for you, you will one day realized about my feeling,”
“nino…”
“Which idiot will give someone his house key when they’re nothing to begin with? He paused, again he smile to hide his feeling. “I guess I am the idiot,”
My jaws drop opened. For how long have him keep his feeling by himself? Why haven’t I notice it?
Or maybe I just refused to see it?
“it’s ok now, because I think it’s time to move on. I’m gonna be 31st tomorrow. It’s a good day for me to begin new life. Without hope. Without all the heartache seeing you happy with someone else. So… can you please return me back the key I gave to you?”
I opened my mouth once to answer, but all of sudden my throat felt so dry that I can’t let out a single word from my mouth. Hence I closed it once, opened it again just to ask another stupid question.
“If I returned it to you, will you give it to someone else?”
He chuckled.
“Maybe, if I’m sure enough that I’ll have a future with him,” slowly he approach me. “The distance between us, maybe we should stop it. Let’s stay friend?” he hold out his hand for a handshake.
But I didn’t take it. Instead, I murmured something about I didn’t bring the key before I rushed out the room leaving him alone in the room by himself.
Why am I feeling so much pain inside me?
NINO POV
“I don’t understand,” I whine to the man in front me. “No. I just don’t understand him. I don’t even understand where on earth he gets the idea that we’re dating,”
“So finally, you coming clean to him?” sho asked as he took a sip from his glass. I nodded.
“I thought everything will be easier when I talk to him. Never that I thought it will be this complicated,”
Sho chuckled.
“Sometimes, the two of you are more slowpokes than I am,” I rolled my eyes. “What if I say, he thought of me as a threat?”
My jaws drop open.
“What?”
Sho laughed.
“Don’t mind that,” Sho took another sip from his glass. “I thought that I will still have a chance, but yappari, I’m wrong,”
I frown.
“hummm… I don’t think I want to live in a shadow of someone you love, nino. Just like you asked to end your feeling for him, maybe I should as well,”
“wait. You… have a feeling at me?” I couldn’t believe my ears. But Sho-kun just let out small chuckles.
“It won’t work though. Just go home, Nino. I know I can’t give you a better present for you. But maybe I did it 7 month ago, when I declared to him to win your heart from him. I failed though. But I’m sure he finally realized his feeling for you since that day,” Sho said, smiling at me. it looks plain though.
I walk back to my apartment with the conversation playing in my head. I feel pity for the man. Though I can understand how it feels to have an unrequited love. So that explained the extra care from him this past few month.
But then, a sentence from our conversation plays in my head.
“…I’m sure he finally realized his feeling for you since that day,” what if he don’t? what if his calculation went wrong?
Should I give him a chance? At least I know he loves me.
“you shouldn’t,” a voice from behind startles me. I turned around to see Ohno standing not too far from me.
“Oh-chan,” I said his name nervously. “What are you doing here?”
There isn’t so much light at the street, but I could see how nervous he is while making his steps towards me. just when he arrived in front me, he opened his mouth once, close it again before once again open his mouth to say what was in his mind.
“if I told you what I’m doing here, you’ll say that I’m a creeper,” I laugh by his answer.
“really? how creepy you can be?” I ask jokingly.
“let’s say… I followed you to your date with Sho-kun?” my mouth fell open.
“okay… that’s creepy,” I said, causing the two of us to laugh.
But then, silent fills our surroundings. He lowered his head, unable to face me before he muttered a question that was loud enough for me to hear.
“Am I still welcome to your house, Nino?” he askes, causing me to frown.
“Huh?”
“I’ve been thinking. When you give me the key to your house last time, you literally giving me your heart,”
I widen my eyes hearing his words. But I keep silent, waiting patiently for him to finish up his explanation.
“I can’t give it back to you….” he pauses, bitng his lower lip. “Because if I do, I know that I will never have your heart again,”
“oh-chan…” he stops me from continuing my words by putting his finger on my lips.
“I’ve been an idiot. I know. you gave me this very big hint to your feeling. For years you’ve been keeping your feeling by yourself. But not even once I realized it. I hurt you so much, I know that I don’t deserve you. But… could you please give me a chance?”
For a moment, I was asking myself if I was hearing everything right. A person who I loved since years ago is asking me for a chance. That must be a dream.
But then, I feel his hand finding mine, entwining our fingers together.
“Please,” he pleads.
But I keep silent. Instead I pull him into a walk, heading back to my apartment.
“Make sure you didn’t lose the key, Oh-chan,” I say without taking a look at him. By the corner of my eyes, I see him nodding, smiling at me.
“I won’t,” is what he said. But then he pulled me to stop from walking. He makes me face him, pulls me towards him, mutter a “happy birthday” when my face was just an inch away from his, before our lips met each other into a kiss.
Somehow, this is the new beginning of my life.
And thank you Sho-chan. it is indeed the best present you gave me. Even though you have to cry for my happiness. Thank you.
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extra note: the definition to the word 'oh'... i didn't have the link though. but i read it somewhere in twitter, and just love the definition.
Author: ica_90
Pairing: Ohmiya, Sakumiya (one-sided)
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: his feeling always be one-sided. Until another person came into their relation, he finally realized his feeling for him
A/N: unbeta. Written for Nino’s birthday, and no, I’m not satisfied with this one. so, I wrote another one. happy birthday brat!! thanks to
iloveohmiya and nino1711azuki for the encouragement and the bet XDNino POV
His birthday was 7 Month Ago. His “I think we should take a break” happened a year before.
Before I knew, the two of us start to take our own way. Or so I thought.
I heard his word very clear, that when he asked for a break, I stop everything with him. The skinship, the talk, and the lovely chat we used to have. But to be honest, I never understand what the ‘break’ he needed from me is.
We’re friend. For him. I love him more than he knows, more than it should be. But I never confessed afraid that it will break the harmony within the group. Hence, I keep it inside me, knowing it slowly eating me.
He didn’t care that much I guess. The distance we created make me realized that my existence is not that important to the man named Ohno Satoshi. Maybe for him, my presence is just the same as the other member presence. Oh god. Do you know how much I want to scream to his ear about how I weep at night, thinking about my unrequited love to him?
And his action hurts me. What with that “we should take a break” when he begin another fanservice with either Jun-kun or Sho-kun? Is he trying to tell me that he has a heart on either the two man? The thought had killed me, literally.
And 7 month ago, i thought that reality has slapped me. A real slapped when I sent him a message, wishing him a happy birthday. The message was plain. Just like how a friend sent to his friend just to wish him a happy birthday, hoping for his great health and success. But 15 second after I hit sent, a message arrived.
“The message was undelivered. The mail is no longer in used,” was what written on my phone screen. I double, triple check the mail I entered. I’m sure I had entered a right mail. But before I could press the send button, something snapped inside my head.
He had changed his mail without telling me about it.
Indeed, my present wasn’t worth enough for him.
I enter our greenroom by the very next morning, only to see a plain smile from the older man who was sitting at our usual couch. I frown, unsure of what I should do next. After about a minutes standing at the door, deliberating where I should head to, I make my step towards him but never bother to take a seat next to him. Instead, I stand facing him. Trying to hide my nervousness, I started to speak.
“Happy birthday, Leader,” he smiled, lifting his head facing me.
“Thank you,” he replied. That’s it? I thought in my head.
“Sorry I didn’t wished you last night. I did actually but it said that the mail was no longer in used,” he looked at me with that innocent look. But before he could say a word, Jun cut him.
“Wait. Don’t you know he has changed his mail?”
Just as I thought.
“I didn’t know,” I replied short. What is this hurt inside me?
“Gomen, I just forgot to tell you. Gomen ne, Nino,” I shook my head as he apologizing. Trying to hide my heartache, I fake a smile. It formed a smirk though.
“Seriously Riida? How can every one of us know about your new mail, but not Nino,” for god sake, I wish Aiba-chan didn’t involved in the conversation. It makes everything awkward than ever.
“I just forget to tell him. When I told you guys about it, he’s not around,” he explained with a pout.
“It’s ok,” I replied. This need to stop. He makes everything clear now. Maybe I should stop thinking about how best friend we are. It’s obvious; it’s only me who think of that. And I shouldn’t hope either that one day he’ll see me the way I look at him. He will never see it.
“Really guys. It’s Ok,” I repeat as I sense the curious look from the member. “This old man just turned 33. He started to forget things. What?”
I asked when I saw him throw me a confused look.
“oh. It’s ok. nevermind. I’m fine. Just tell me your mail when you’re free later. Okay?” and then I moved to one corner of the room, pulling out the DS from my bag, start to play it.
The empty couch looked so lonely when it’s filled only by him. but I don’t care.
Because he simply don’t care as well.
OHNO POV
“do you know, sometimes the words ‘oh’ has another meaning as well?”
Sho-kun asked me all of sudden as he played with his smartphone.
“Really?” I replied lazily. “For example?”
“For example….” Sho paused for a moment. “The way Nino replied just now,”
I turn to look at the man who was standing next to him in the elevator.
“What do you mean?”
“hahahah. Don’t mind me. I just think of something while reading this. They said the word is telling you that ‘my heart just got ripped into a million pieces but I won’t tell you because you wouldn’t care how much I feel anyway’. Somehow… it sounded sad isn’t it?”
I didn’t reply. I couldn’t. Because I don’t have an idea of what I should say.
Did Nino hurt? Just because I didn’t tell him my new mail? Isn’t that childish?
“Let say if I decided to treat all member to dinner but not you, what will you feel?” Sho asked.
“Of course I feel sad. Like did I do something wrong? Why is it you treating me differently from others?”
“That’s what he feel now I guess. But, you know Nino. He didn’t really tell,”
Silent.
“Did something happened between you two? You guys seem distance,”
And again, I have no answer for the question.
Maybe I have. The two of us has grown up, that I feel that fan service is an embarrassing thing to do. Maybe I was thinking too much about future. That I feel embarrassed if one day my son browse through the old clip of Arashi and see all the Ohmiya fan service we’ve been doing back then.
“Leader,” Sho-kun called me, stopping me from continuing all the thought inside my head.
“Hmm?”
“What do you think of Nino?’ I widen my eyes to the sudden question.
“What? – i- friend, maybe?” I answer, hesitate. “What’s with that question?”
And then I saw the brightest smile from Sho-kun.
“Really? is that so? Jaa… maybe I still have a chance,”
“Chance? What are you talking about?”
Sho then makes me face him. his smile didn’t leave his face.
“You don’t have to worry now, Ohno-kun. I’ll make him stop loving you. I will make sure that he’ll be happy with me instead,”
“That’s so frank of you!” I tried to laugh. It sounds fake though. Only god knows how grateful I am as we reached the 5th floor and the lift door open. I make my step as fast as possible away from the man when Sho yelled from behind.
“I mean, it better that way right? Making him stop loving you will stop his sorrows. I’ll give him the love he deserve instead,”
Nino loved me?
“What the hell are you talking about?”
Sho laughed.
“it’s Ok, Ohno-kun. Rest assured. I’m glad that you didn’t have feeling for him. you shouldn’t be worried from now on. I’ll take care of him,” Sho smiled before make his step away from me, heading home maybe.
For some reason, his words annoy me.
But then here I realized. The distance we created has widened even more.
He didn’t talk about the mail issues anymore. It seems like he stopped bothering about me. It was one week later when I finally approached him again and decided to tell him my new mail.
“Really, you shouldn’t care about it Riida. Our senpai didn’t have each other number as well, yet they still work fine. Don’t worry about it,” he said, it sound sarcasm to me.
“In case of emergency,” I replied short, pouting.
“Well if you say so…” and he type it lazily before took his leave there, joining Sho for dinner.
For a few months, I felt like I have lost something in my life. I never felt it before, maybe because the selfish part of me know, no matter how bad I treated him, he’ll be there for me. I was wrong. He’s not there. The couch usually filled by us every morning was an empty space now.
And when I tried to begin the relation between us again, he simply pushed me away. As much as it hurts me when he did that, the way he throw Sho-kun a shy smile hurts me more.
There’s a new question exist in my life now. If Nino was just a friend to me, what with this hurt when I saw him happy with someone else?
Have I fall in love with him as well?
*****
Nino POV
And all of sudden, he started become clingy to me. What the hell is wrong with that ojiisan? Where is his ‘I think we should take a break’ thing go?’ he didn’t even say “we should start it again”. What the hell is wrong with him?
And Sho-kun started to act all weird too. He put extra attention on me. Not that he ever did it before, but still… it’s weird.
And the weirdest thing is when he tries to plan for a birthday party for me.
“I hate one, remember,” I remind him. He laughed.
“I know. So, I’ll end that plan. But you have to free your schedule today because I’m going to treat you for your birthday,”
“That sounds better. What should I give you in return?”
That smirk on Sho-kun face looks weird to me as well.
“A kiss is fine,”
Ahhh… my bandmate has started acting weird again. What on earth is happening?
OHNO POV
Nino looked troubled when I entered the greenroom that morning. I could see he’s struggling to pass the level, I’m not sure if the level is too high for his standard or he just lost his focus.
But I didn’t bother by that. Blame Sho sakurai for that.
It’s not that I want to hear the conversation between the two members. I accidently heard them talking before I walk into the room this morning, and I continued on hearing it. And it kinda pissed me off when I heard the way Sho talk to Nino.
A kiss? How pervert that man can be? Is he trying to use Nino for something?
I walk toward the gamer who I can see frown on his face. He looks troubled; I’m not sure if it is because of the game or because of Sho-kun. Minding the distance between us last time, I took my seat next to him at the empty couch.
“Oh, leader…” he acknowledges my presence, though I can see he’s startled by it. “Sorry, I didn’t hear you walk in,”
“Of course. You just absorbed with your game,” I replied, causing him to give me a plain smile. He continued playing with his game after that and me unconsciously lean my head on his shoulders, something that I usually do before.
It didn’t stay long however, when he stand up, looking confused as ever.
“gomen,” he said short. “i… I need to go. Sho-kun…”
“You had a date with him?” it sounds like a question, though I’m sure it is more to a statement. “Are you guys really dating?”
For a moment, Nino didn’t reply me.
“It’s ok. You don’t have to answer that, Nino,” I bite my lower lips. “It’s your birthday tomorrow right? Do you need anything for your birthday present?”
I tried to sound as cheerful as I can. But I’m sure he notice the nervousness in my voice.
“Nothing particular actually,” he paused. “Though… I thought on asking you to return back the key to my house,”
I widen my eyes.
“What? Why?” the question sounds stupid. I know it. I see him give me a ‘you’re unbelievable’ face.
“I don’t see any good excuse for you to have it now. You never come to my house before. And we’re not sharing it. And with the situation between us now, I don’t think that you’ll come either,”
The two of us fell silent right after he finished his words. For a while, we keep staring at each other, until he break our eye contact, sighing.
“Sometimes I feel cheap,” he begins. “I don’t know why I am giving everything to you when I couldn’t see a single hope from you,”
I frown.
“You will never understand ne, Oh-chan,” he chuckled, giving me a hurtful stare. “I thought that if I wait for you, you will one day realized about my feeling,”
“nino…”
“Which idiot will give someone his house key when they’re nothing to begin with? He paused, again he smile to hide his feeling. “I guess I am the idiot,”
My jaws drop opened. For how long have him keep his feeling by himself? Why haven’t I notice it?
Or maybe I just refused to see it?
“it’s ok now, because I think it’s time to move on. I’m gonna be 31st tomorrow. It’s a good day for me to begin new life. Without hope. Without all the heartache seeing you happy with someone else. So… can you please return me back the key I gave to you?”
I opened my mouth once to answer, but all of sudden my throat felt so dry that I can’t let out a single word from my mouth. Hence I closed it once, opened it again just to ask another stupid question.
“If I returned it to you, will you give it to someone else?”
He chuckled.
“Maybe, if I’m sure enough that I’ll have a future with him,” slowly he approach me. “The distance between us, maybe we should stop it. Let’s stay friend?” he hold out his hand for a handshake.
But I didn’t take it. Instead, I murmured something about I didn’t bring the key before I rushed out the room leaving him alone in the room by himself.
Why am I feeling so much pain inside me?
NINO POV
“I don’t understand,” I whine to the man in front me. “No. I just don’t understand him. I don’t even understand where on earth he gets the idea that we’re dating,”
“So finally, you coming clean to him?” sho asked as he took a sip from his glass. I nodded.
“I thought everything will be easier when I talk to him. Never that I thought it will be this complicated,”
Sho chuckled.
“Sometimes, the two of you are more slowpokes than I am,” I rolled my eyes. “What if I say, he thought of me as a threat?”
My jaws drop open.
“What?”
Sho laughed.
“Don’t mind that,” Sho took another sip from his glass. “I thought that I will still have a chance, but yappari, I’m wrong,”
I frown.
“hummm… I don’t think I want to live in a shadow of someone you love, nino. Just like you asked to end your feeling for him, maybe I should as well,”
“wait. You… have a feeling at me?” I couldn’t believe my ears. But Sho-kun just let out small chuckles.
“It won’t work though. Just go home, Nino. I know I can’t give you a better present for you. But maybe I did it 7 month ago, when I declared to him to win your heart from him. I failed though. But I’m sure he finally realized his feeling for you since that day,” Sho said, smiling at me. it looks plain though.
I walk back to my apartment with the conversation playing in my head. I feel pity for the man. Though I can understand how it feels to have an unrequited love. So that explained the extra care from him this past few month.
But then, a sentence from our conversation plays in my head.
“…I’m sure he finally realized his feeling for you since that day,” what if he don’t? what if his calculation went wrong?
Should I give him a chance? At least I know he loves me.
“you shouldn’t,” a voice from behind startles me. I turned around to see Ohno standing not too far from me.
“Oh-chan,” I said his name nervously. “What are you doing here?”
There isn’t so much light at the street, but I could see how nervous he is while making his steps towards me. just when he arrived in front me, he opened his mouth once, close it again before once again open his mouth to say what was in his mind.
“if I told you what I’m doing here, you’ll say that I’m a creeper,” I laugh by his answer.
“really? how creepy you can be?” I ask jokingly.
“let’s say… I followed you to your date with Sho-kun?” my mouth fell open.
“okay… that’s creepy,” I said, causing the two of us to laugh.
But then, silent fills our surroundings. He lowered his head, unable to face me before he muttered a question that was loud enough for me to hear.
“Am I still welcome to your house, Nino?” he askes, causing me to frown.
“Huh?”
“I’ve been thinking. When you give me the key to your house last time, you literally giving me your heart,”
I widen my eyes hearing his words. But I keep silent, waiting patiently for him to finish up his explanation.
“I can’t give it back to you….” he pauses, bitng his lower lip. “Because if I do, I know that I will never have your heart again,”
“oh-chan…” he stops me from continuing my words by putting his finger on my lips.
“I’ve been an idiot. I know. you gave me this very big hint to your feeling. For years you’ve been keeping your feeling by yourself. But not even once I realized it. I hurt you so much, I know that I don’t deserve you. But… could you please give me a chance?”
For a moment, I was asking myself if I was hearing everything right. A person who I loved since years ago is asking me for a chance. That must be a dream.
But then, I feel his hand finding mine, entwining our fingers together.
“Please,” he pleads.
But I keep silent. Instead I pull him into a walk, heading back to my apartment.
“Make sure you didn’t lose the key, Oh-chan,” I say without taking a look at him. By the corner of my eyes, I see him nodding, smiling at me.
“I won’t,” is what he said. But then he pulled me to stop from walking. He makes me face him, pulls me towards him, mutter a “happy birthday” when my face was just an inch away from his, before our lips met each other into a kiss.
Somehow, this is the new beginning of my life.
And thank you Sho-chan. it is indeed the best present you gave me. Even though you have to cry for my happiness. Thank you.
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extra note: the definition to the word 'oh'... i didn't have the link though. but i read it somewhere in twitter, and just love the definition.
