[ongoing] What we lost - Ohmiya [6/8]
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ica_90Title: What we lost (6/8)
Author: ica_90
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst, AU
Summary: Losing their child in an accident, Nino started to distance himself from Ohno in which Ohno never knows why.
Disclaimer: ohmiya own each other. Enough said
A/N: unbeta.
Chapter 6
-flashback-
His lips kept forming a smile as he watched his excited son talking about how awesome the day would be. It has been a long time since Ohno planned for a day out with their son, heck that man has become so workaholics nowadays. Until Shin voiced it out last week, pretending to be sulking to their dad, Ohno decided that they could have a t least a day out.
Nino couldn’t help to laugh when their child browsing through their closet, choosing the clothes that they should be wearing that day, mix and match his clothes so that it would suit his coordination for Ohno’s clothes as well.
He felt bless, despite their relation build without the consent from his parent, they live happily together. They were a happy family. Ohno was a responsible man, different from the image he had before in the university; a man who live according to his way, carefree and minding his own business. But the moment their relation face the hard moment, the man change. And the moment Shin exist in their life, it is safe to say that the man was responsible enough to take care of the family. And one thing that Nino always proud of was Ohno cares about him more than anything else. Never once Ohno whined about his brat attitude and Nino loves it when the man shows extra attention on him or their child.
Shin existence in the family was another reason for their happiness. The child laughter doubles the happiness they had since before. To this date, Nino wasn’t sure who’s the real father of the child. He didn’t know, and it wasn’t that necessary for him to know about it. The child was talented as ohno; both in drawing and dancing, at the same as cunning as Nino. Somehow the image of Ohno’s face while playing hide and seek with the two played inside his mind, lead him to chuckle by himself.
“Why are you laughing papa?” the child ask, tilting his head with curious shown on his face.
“Nothing, I just remember Daddy’s face that time when we prank on him,” Nino replied with a chuckle and the child giggle along with him.
“Daddy was freak out ne, papa. He really thought that you had leave him,”
Nino nodded.
“He thought the two of us had leaved him. Pity that ojiisan,”
“Yeah, but daddy called your name again and again. He called me once only,” the child said, pouting a little, making the father to frown. Throwing the child a soft smile, he tickled the child causing Shin to laugh.
“You’re not jealous aren’t you?” Nino asks while tickling his child. “Daddy love you too, Shin. You don’t doubt your parent love towards you,”
“I know. But I just want to tell you how much daddy loves you, papa. Do you remember his face when he read that paper? He almost cried. You shouldn’t do that again ne, papa?”
Nino frowned.
“Huh? Why?”
“Because daddy will be sad. I don’t want daddy to be sad. He had promised me that he will never hurt you, so you shouldn’t make him sad too,” the child explained with a pouting lips following after he finished his words.
Watching this, Nino laughed, patting their son’s head soft before took him onto his lap when the child never stop pouting.
“ok. ok. I’m sorry ne, Shin. But that was just a prank. I will never leave him for real though. if you told me that daddy loves me, believe me, my love towards your daddy is twice his love towards me,”
“Really?” a smile slowly appeared on the child lips. Nino nodded.
“Really, my love. My love towards your daddy is in a level where if he doesn’t love me anymore, it’s much better dying than living,”
That manage to bring back the smile on the child lips. He wrapped his hand along his father neck, hugs him tight.
“I love you papa,”
Nino smile.
“of course I love you too, Shin-chan. Now, go change while I call that ojiisan, ask him why wasn’t he here yet?”
Nino chuckled along with his child when he saw Shin was doing it, feeling funny by the way Nino called the man. the child hug him one last time before hopping out the room, excited with their plan that day. Nino watched his son until he left the room before pulling out his phone from his pocket.
He dialed Ohno’s number once, twice and both went unanswered. Slightly irritated, he dialed again for the third time and this time he couldn’t hold his annoyance towards the older man when it went to his mailbox.
“you’re an idiot! I told you before that you can break your promise to me (but I’m still gonna be mad at you if you did it), but never ever break the promise you made to Shin! You’re so dead, ojiisan. I’m gonna make you beg for my ass for a month!” he type the message while gritting his teeth, pressing the send button with an unnecessary amount of pressure. The reply he received from the man never reduce his annoyance though.
“I’m sorry, my love. Blame this witch. I‘m supposed to leave the office 30 mins ago, but I’m still inside this stupid meeting room. and seems like we still have another meeting to attend later, and she told me about it last minute!!! I’m sorry that I can’t make it with you guys now, but I promise you I’ll make it to the dinner tonight. How about the restaurant you saw in the internet last time? my treat. Extra note: I don’t have to beg… right? I know you can’t resist me,”
His lips can’t help forming a pout when he read the message. But at the same time, slowly it turned into a smile, a little blushing by the words.
“What an idiot,” he replied the message short only to received another reply from Ohno.
“I’m sure you’re pouting now. Stop, because imagining you doing that makes me go unfocused.*laugh* I’ll see you tonight. I promised you. Take care of Shin. I love you,”
His smile wider than before. For a while he keep staring the message before softly mutter his reply.
“I love you too, ojiisan,”
****
It took Nino almost half an hour to coax his son due to the fact that Ohno had broken their promise earlier. The child went to his room, with his happy face which turns to a long pouty lip later on when Nino told him about Ohno before he ran towards his own bedroom, locking himself inside.
“Come on, Shin. It’s not that we never hang out together alone,”
“Of course. That’s why it has become too boring to do one. It’s always you and me. Daddy is too busy to hang out with us anymore. Doesn’t he loves us anymore?” the child say, slowly opened the bedroom door to see Nino biting his lips.
“Of course he loves us. But for now, he has an important task to do, so… let’s wait for tonight? We’ll punish him with extra food and more games?”
And that manage to make the son to agree with him.
The day was fine. He couldn’t help smiling everytime he saw how hyper the child was with what he saw. Ohno had promised him to go to the theme park. But due to the fact that he was bad with the place, he decided to take Shin to the family game centre instead.
They spend quite a time there before Shin whine that he was hungry that Nino took him out to the nearest restaurant.
Nino remembered well how they were chating inside the car, heading home, singing the song played on the radio, happily, the child giggling when he went off-pitch. It’s a very happy day for Nino. Or that was what he thought.
They’re at the traffic light. And it was red that he stopped at the junction when Shin suddenly asked him a question.
“Papa…” Shin called him making him to look at his child, raising his eyebrows. “is daddy… really working right now?”
“huh? Why did you asked?”
“just answer me. is he?” there’s a glint of tears in the child eyes when he was asking the question, desperately wanting an answer. Nino frown, curious.
“yes, honey. Haven’t I told you that before?” and then the child smile, sighing of relieved.
“I’m glad then,”
“why did you asked?”
“because that man over there, in that car. He looked so much like daddy. I’m so afraid thinking that it might be him,” Shin explained pointing at the car at the opposite junction.
And what Nino saw breaks him so much. Ohno. in a car with another woman.
He could clearly see how bright the man was smiling, Nino could see it wasn’t an insincere one, but the moment the woman pulled Ohno by his collar, closing their face into an intimate kiss, Nino wasn’t sure of his world anymore.
“it’s green, Papa,” the child voice startled him. He drove away, but the scene that he saw wasn’t faded from his mind. So what the man had told him before, about working was a lie? How can Ohno explained to him later about what he saw? Will it be another lie? It ache his heart so much. Without warning, a tear flowed on his cheeks.
“Papa… are you OK?” Shin question hurt him more than he thought. How could he be OK after what he saw? And when he nodded as a reply, his body shivered by the lie he made to his child. He let out a sob, but trying with all his might, trying to not showing his broken side to his son.
“You’re not ok. you’re lying,” he could sense the child was pouting as he said those words. “the one I show just now… was daddy right?”
Should he nodded? But how can he tell the truth to his child? Won’t it ruin the happiness of the child of having the thought that he was living with a happy family that turned out to be a lie? Ohno cheated on him. And Nino sure his child saw exactly the same thing that he saw. But how could he tell the bad thing about the person who he loved most to his only child?
“No. you’re wrong,” was his second lie within those 5 minutes. But Shin was so persistent. The child voice insisting the truth mess his already messy mind. The whine, the cried, everything is.
“It was him! I knew it. If he isn’t, why are you crying? Papa. Please…”
“Just shut up, will you?” and the child did. Nino didn’t know that it makes him even messier when he saw the child was crying silently.
“Shin, I’m sorry. I don’t mean to yell at you but…”
The child didn’t wailed, but watching how miserable the tears flowing from the younger’s eyes, Nino knew he had done something bad. He let his emotion overcome him. it’s hurt, but at the same time, he couldn’t tell it. he felt miserable. He felt worst. And Shin means well but all he did was hurting the small one heart.
“Shin… I’m-“
Everything happened to fast. His hand instinctively reaches his son face, trying to wipe away the tears on the child face. But within a second, he heard a loud screeching sound, followed by a loud honk before the crashed.
He remembered the chaos, the scream; both his and Shin, his hand grabbing the steering eventhough there’s nothing could be done when the car was dragged few kilometers away by the impact before it rolled a few time. all he was doing was praying that everything could end soon. And when it did, it was so silent.
Trapped in the car, he didn’t know what he should do, he can’t move his neck, eventhough he could heard a weak whimpered at his side, but he he couldn’t tell the direction. His mind keeps telling him to look for his son, but his limb betrays him. few times, he called Shin even though he could feel his strength was drove away and nothing he received as a reply. Nothing other than disappointed he could feel at the moment.
He could feel a liquid flowing from his head, it taste metallic when it passed his lips. he heard how chaos the situation outside of the car, some people had arrive for help maybe, but his head was too heavy with regrets to think. And the scene of Ohno kissing the woman once again played in his mind, making him lose his strength to live anymore.
Ohno had cheated on him. he has lied to him. he had broke his heart. and Nino sure Ohno doesn’t love him anymore. what’s the function of living when the one you love most doesn’t have the same feeling for you? the thought kept playing inside his mind, making his tears flows by the hurt; both from the accident and his broken heart.
Before his conscious lost, a soft small hand reached his. With a very limited move, he turned to look at the hand, to see his son, face covered with blood. Shin was crying. Nino notice how weak the child is. He wanted to take the child into his embrace, but he couldn’t.
The child lips shivered as he was trying to tell him something, and when he did, it breaks Nino to the point that he doesn’t want his life anymore.
“Papa, I’m sorry,” the last words the young boy muttered to him before he lost his conscious.
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Author: ica_90
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst, AU
Summary: Losing their child in an accident, Nino started to distance himself from Ohno in which Ohno never knows why.
Disclaimer: ohmiya own each other. Enough said
A/N: unbeta.
Chapter 6
-flashback-
His lips kept forming a smile as he watched his excited son talking about how awesome the day would be. It has been a long time since Ohno planned for a day out with their son, heck that man has become so workaholics nowadays. Until Shin voiced it out last week, pretending to be sulking to their dad, Ohno decided that they could have a t least a day out.
Nino couldn’t help to laugh when their child browsing through their closet, choosing the clothes that they should be wearing that day, mix and match his clothes so that it would suit his coordination for Ohno’s clothes as well.
He felt bless, despite their relation build without the consent from his parent, they live happily together. They were a happy family. Ohno was a responsible man, different from the image he had before in the university; a man who live according to his way, carefree and minding his own business. But the moment their relation face the hard moment, the man change. And the moment Shin exist in their life, it is safe to say that the man was responsible enough to take care of the family. And one thing that Nino always proud of was Ohno cares about him more than anything else. Never once Ohno whined about his brat attitude and Nino loves it when the man shows extra attention on him or their child.
Shin existence in the family was another reason for their happiness. The child laughter doubles the happiness they had since before. To this date, Nino wasn’t sure who’s the real father of the child. He didn’t know, and it wasn’t that necessary for him to know about it. The child was talented as ohno; both in drawing and dancing, at the same as cunning as Nino. Somehow the image of Ohno’s face while playing hide and seek with the two played inside his mind, lead him to chuckle by himself.
“Why are you laughing papa?” the child ask, tilting his head with curious shown on his face.
“Nothing, I just remember Daddy’s face that time when we prank on him,” Nino replied with a chuckle and the child giggle along with him.
“Daddy was freak out ne, papa. He really thought that you had leave him,”
Nino nodded.
“He thought the two of us had leaved him. Pity that ojiisan,”
“Yeah, but daddy called your name again and again. He called me once only,” the child said, pouting a little, making the father to frown. Throwing the child a soft smile, he tickled the child causing Shin to laugh.
“You’re not jealous aren’t you?” Nino asks while tickling his child. “Daddy love you too, Shin. You don’t doubt your parent love towards you,”
“I know. But I just want to tell you how much daddy loves you, papa. Do you remember his face when he read that paper? He almost cried. You shouldn’t do that again ne, papa?”
Nino frowned.
“Huh? Why?”
“Because daddy will be sad. I don’t want daddy to be sad. He had promised me that he will never hurt you, so you shouldn’t make him sad too,” the child explained with a pouting lips following after he finished his words.
Watching this, Nino laughed, patting their son’s head soft before took him onto his lap when the child never stop pouting.
“ok. ok. I’m sorry ne, Shin. But that was just a prank. I will never leave him for real though. if you told me that daddy loves me, believe me, my love towards your daddy is twice his love towards me,”
“Really?” a smile slowly appeared on the child lips. Nino nodded.
“Really, my love. My love towards your daddy is in a level where if he doesn’t love me anymore, it’s much better dying than living,”
That manage to bring back the smile on the child lips. He wrapped his hand along his father neck, hugs him tight.
“I love you papa,”
Nino smile.
“of course I love you too, Shin-chan. Now, go change while I call that ojiisan, ask him why wasn’t he here yet?”
Nino chuckled along with his child when he saw Shin was doing it, feeling funny by the way Nino called the man. the child hug him one last time before hopping out the room, excited with their plan that day. Nino watched his son until he left the room before pulling out his phone from his pocket.
He dialed Ohno’s number once, twice and both went unanswered. Slightly irritated, he dialed again for the third time and this time he couldn’t hold his annoyance towards the older man when it went to his mailbox.
“you’re an idiot! I told you before that you can break your promise to me (but I’m still gonna be mad at you if you did it), but never ever break the promise you made to Shin! You’re so dead, ojiisan. I’m gonna make you beg for my ass for a month!” he type the message while gritting his teeth, pressing the send button with an unnecessary amount of pressure. The reply he received from the man never reduce his annoyance though.
“I’m sorry, my love. Blame this witch. I‘m supposed to leave the office 30 mins ago, but I’m still inside this stupid meeting room. and seems like we still have another meeting to attend later, and she told me about it last minute!!! I’m sorry that I can’t make it with you guys now, but I promise you I’ll make it to the dinner tonight. How about the restaurant you saw in the internet last time? my treat. Extra note: I don’t have to beg… right? I know you can’t resist me,”
His lips can’t help forming a pout when he read the message. But at the same time, slowly it turned into a smile, a little blushing by the words.
“What an idiot,” he replied the message short only to received another reply from Ohno.
“I’m sure you’re pouting now. Stop, because imagining you doing that makes me go unfocused.*laugh* I’ll see you tonight. I promised you. Take care of Shin. I love you,”
His smile wider than before. For a while he keep staring the message before softly mutter his reply.
“I love you too, ojiisan,”
****
It took Nino almost half an hour to coax his son due to the fact that Ohno had broken their promise earlier. The child went to his room, with his happy face which turns to a long pouty lip later on when Nino told him about Ohno before he ran towards his own bedroom, locking himself inside.
“Come on, Shin. It’s not that we never hang out together alone,”
“Of course. That’s why it has become too boring to do one. It’s always you and me. Daddy is too busy to hang out with us anymore. Doesn’t he loves us anymore?” the child say, slowly opened the bedroom door to see Nino biting his lips.
“Of course he loves us. But for now, he has an important task to do, so… let’s wait for tonight? We’ll punish him with extra food and more games?”
And that manage to make the son to agree with him.
The day was fine. He couldn’t help smiling everytime he saw how hyper the child was with what he saw. Ohno had promised him to go to the theme park. But due to the fact that he was bad with the place, he decided to take Shin to the family game centre instead.
They spend quite a time there before Shin whine that he was hungry that Nino took him out to the nearest restaurant.
Nino remembered well how they were chating inside the car, heading home, singing the song played on the radio, happily, the child giggling when he went off-pitch. It’s a very happy day for Nino. Or that was what he thought.
They’re at the traffic light. And it was red that he stopped at the junction when Shin suddenly asked him a question.
“Papa…” Shin called him making him to look at his child, raising his eyebrows. “is daddy… really working right now?”
“huh? Why did you asked?”
“just answer me. is he?” there’s a glint of tears in the child eyes when he was asking the question, desperately wanting an answer. Nino frown, curious.
“yes, honey. Haven’t I told you that before?” and then the child smile, sighing of relieved.
“I’m glad then,”
“why did you asked?”
“because that man over there, in that car. He looked so much like daddy. I’m so afraid thinking that it might be him,” Shin explained pointing at the car at the opposite junction.
And what Nino saw breaks him so much. Ohno. in a car with another woman.
He could clearly see how bright the man was smiling, Nino could see it wasn’t an insincere one, but the moment the woman pulled Ohno by his collar, closing their face into an intimate kiss, Nino wasn’t sure of his world anymore.
“it’s green, Papa,” the child voice startled him. He drove away, but the scene that he saw wasn’t faded from his mind. So what the man had told him before, about working was a lie? How can Ohno explained to him later about what he saw? Will it be another lie? It ache his heart so much. Without warning, a tear flowed on his cheeks.
“Papa… are you OK?” Shin question hurt him more than he thought. How could he be OK after what he saw? And when he nodded as a reply, his body shivered by the lie he made to his child. He let out a sob, but trying with all his might, trying to not showing his broken side to his son.
“You’re not ok. you’re lying,” he could sense the child was pouting as he said those words. “the one I show just now… was daddy right?”
Should he nodded? But how can he tell the truth to his child? Won’t it ruin the happiness of the child of having the thought that he was living with a happy family that turned out to be a lie? Ohno cheated on him. And Nino sure his child saw exactly the same thing that he saw. But how could he tell the bad thing about the person who he loved most to his only child?
“No. you’re wrong,” was his second lie within those 5 minutes. But Shin was so persistent. The child voice insisting the truth mess his already messy mind. The whine, the cried, everything is.
“It was him! I knew it. If he isn’t, why are you crying? Papa. Please…”
“Just shut up, will you?” and the child did. Nino didn’t know that it makes him even messier when he saw the child was crying silently.
“Shin, I’m sorry. I don’t mean to yell at you but…”
The child didn’t wailed, but watching how miserable the tears flowing from the younger’s eyes, Nino knew he had done something bad. He let his emotion overcome him. it’s hurt, but at the same time, he couldn’t tell it. he felt miserable. He felt worst. And Shin means well but all he did was hurting the small one heart.
“Shin… I’m-“
Everything happened to fast. His hand instinctively reaches his son face, trying to wipe away the tears on the child face. But within a second, he heard a loud screeching sound, followed by a loud honk before the crashed.
He remembered the chaos, the scream; both his and Shin, his hand grabbing the steering eventhough there’s nothing could be done when the car was dragged few kilometers away by the impact before it rolled a few time. all he was doing was praying that everything could end soon. And when it did, it was so silent.
Trapped in the car, he didn’t know what he should do, he can’t move his neck, eventhough he could heard a weak whimpered at his side, but he he couldn’t tell the direction. His mind keeps telling him to look for his son, but his limb betrays him. few times, he called Shin even though he could feel his strength was drove away and nothing he received as a reply. Nothing other than disappointed he could feel at the moment.
He could feel a liquid flowing from his head, it taste metallic when it passed his lips. he heard how chaos the situation outside of the car, some people had arrive for help maybe, but his head was too heavy with regrets to think. And the scene of Ohno kissing the woman once again played in his mind, making him lose his strength to live anymore.
Ohno had cheated on him. he has lied to him. he had broke his heart. and Nino sure Ohno doesn’t love him anymore. what’s the function of living when the one you love most doesn’t have the same feeling for you? the thought kept playing inside his mind, making his tears flows by the hurt; both from the accident and his broken heart.
Before his conscious lost, a soft small hand reached his. With a very limited move, he turned to look at the hand, to see his son, face covered with blood. Shin was crying. Nino notice how weak the child is. He wanted to take the child into his embrace, but he couldn’t.
The child lips shivered as he was trying to tell him something, and when he did, it breaks Nino to the point that he doesn’t want his life anymore.
“Papa, I’m sorry,” the last words the young boy muttered to him before he lost his conscious.
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