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chapter 14

Riisa Pov

This is weird. It sure is.

While I was reluctantly received the kiss, it grows into a passionate one. But all I do is standing still, not giving any response. Not even replying, not even push him away.

“And that proves I’m serious with what I have said,” he said once he let go.

I was breathing so hard, thinking how I should start with whatever I have thought to say. To be honest, I’m afraid of whatever I’m going to say. Knowing Ninomiya Kazunari for quite a long time, I’m sure whatever I’ll say later will give a hard response by him.

“Say something,” he said, panicked in his tone.

I took a deep breath before I absently minded saying what I’m going to say.

“I can’t return your love, gomen,” with that I turn almost running to my room.

I know it harsh for saying those words without a proper explanation. But, it’s all I can do. With my conditions, I have promise myself I won’t be greed.

Before I could think more, I heard a knock on the door of the room. And before I could go and open it, there he is, standing there, looking at me with an intense look.

For a while, both of us keep silence, I keep looking at me, while he keeps staring at me.

“why?”He asks, breaking the silent.

All I do is keeping my mouth shut.

“are you mad?”

I shook my head.

“then?”

Again, silent.

“I can’t return your love, Kazu-kun,” I said, a little bit stutter. I try my very best to sounds convincing but I’m sure I fail when I see he narrows his eyes with his lips form a smirk to her words.

“why not?”

Silent again. I didn’t know what I should say more. He shouldn’t know it. I’m sure if he knows, he’ll refuse to do operation. But my silent seems to generate his anger. His hands grab my arms, forcing me to face him.

“Staying silent didn’t give me an answer, Riisa. Just freaking tells me why you can’t?” this is hard then I thought. Knowing him, I’m sure he won’t let it go unless he gets the answer that he want.

“Why can’t you. You keep saying those words without telling me the real reason. I need to know why?”

I’m not sure how, but the words that finally I said shock me most.

“because you’re an idol”

NINO POV

And finally, curiosity kills me.

I might have expected that will be the reason. But I never thought it will hurt me this much. For a moment, I lock my eyes on her, hoping she’ll change whatever she has said just now. But all she did is staring back at me, showing no sign she will.

I sighs. A little broken. Slowly, I turn myself towards the door, walk through it.

“Kazu-kun..” she calls me soft. I stop. “I’m sorry”

This time I turn myself facing her with a smirk on my lips.

“no worries about it, like you always said, you have right to reject it by the way,”

I saw she shock with my words but my heartache seems to cause me to get carried away by feeling.

“tell Kaa-chan, I’m going back to my apartment. Oyasumi,” then I left.

Of course I shouldn’t force her. But being rejected this time, it’s totally different. I never thought that I’ll be rejected because I’m an idol. Thousands of people might want me as theirs.

What a ridiculous she is.

RIISA POV.

“day dreaming?”

I shook my head.

“don’t mind him, Riisa-chan. He’ll be fine,” kaachan try to reassure me. I sigh.

“I’m sure he mad at me,” I said, whispering but loud enough to be heard by kaachan.

“it’s ok, Riisa-chan. Sometimes, he needs to learn, not all thing he wants, he’ll get it,” kaachan said, just to comfort me. But still it didn’t help me much. After that heated conversation that I had with him last night, he went out and never come back. I wonder if he’s alright.

I stay silent until we heard the sound of the doorbell. Not trying to find out who’s at the door, I let kaachan to open it while I keep staring at the empty wall of the kitchen with my hand working on the onion.

“Riisa-chan, you have a guest,” I turned just to see a perfect figure standing infront of me. Eliz.

To be honest, I can talk sharply at my dad, remarks with every single word that will pierce him. But the one standing infront me, I never can do that. She’s my sister, but still the gap and treatment I received has caused me to become scared of her.

I just nod a little at her, then I never face her.

“Why don’t you both stay in the living room, Riisa-chan? I’ll prepare the lunch for us,” kaachan say friendly.

“It’s ok, baachan. You don’t have to burden yourself, we’ll take them outside. It has been a long time I went to Japan,” Eliz said before asking for permission to stay at the living room. I just followed her.

For nearly 10 minutes, both of us just stay at the living room with nothing to speak out. I keep looking at the floor until she suggests something.

“Let’s take a walk”