[Drabbles/Ongoing] Love at the Last Moment
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ica_90Title: Love at the Last Moment 1/?
Author: ica_90
Lenght: Drabble and Ongoing
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: 3 months left.. within this 3 months, he loves him once again.
“Nino…” I call him, In hope that he’ll wake up hearing my voices. But hope fails me. he didn’t wake up. in fact, it’s the second week he never wake up. 14 days since the last time I’ve talk to him.
Brain cancer, 4th stage. 3 month left.
Those words keep on repeating inside my head like forever since the first time I receives the news few month ago. I lost track of the days. It’s like counting how many times left for me to be with him.
People say that we will never acknowledge someone presence until he leaves us. Maybe, maybe that is what’s happening to me now. His words 3 months ago echoed in my mind
“let’s break up,” it feels so heavy when I hear he says those words. but being the selfish me, I concern less on his feeling.
“are you sure?” is the words that I replied, unable to hide the sense of relieves in my tone. I saw him nods, giving me one smile to hide his hurting heart. leaving the key on the table, he leaves the house.
I never feel guilty. Not at all. Ending this relation is what I’ve been thing for the past few weeks. Hence when he says it, I couldn’t help to feel relieve. I didn’t even ask him why eventhough it is so suspicious to suddenly breaking up. I never care. The moment I care about it, everything was too late.
“for god sake, Ninomiya! Hiding this from me, what do you think you’re doing?” my voice echoed inside the room. unable to hide my disappointment, I didn’t care of my environment. All I need is an answer of why he hides his disease from me.
“I’m doing what’s right, Oh-chan,” he said soft, didn’t lift up his face.
“right?” I ask, breathe starts to become unsteady. “which part of this is right? I didn’t see any!”
And then realization hits me.
“god, are you breaking up with me because of this? Because you know you’re dying?”
Silents.
“ANSWER ME!”
“no,” he pauses. “the reason why I broke up with you is because for the past few month, I’m no longer in your view oh-chan. you can’t see what’s happening to me. you didn’t realized for the past few months I been come back and forth to this hospital. You didn’t notices that I’ve been taking medicine everytime after our meal together. You didn’t notice that I’m dying because all that you notice is someone else! I broke up with you because you no longer love me,”
This time, it was me who’s speechless.
“if possible…” he wipes his tears. “I want you, the one that I love to stay by my side until the end of my life. but I don’t want you to stay because I ask you to stay. I want you to stay because you sincerely want to. Because you love me”
He pauses, pulling his face away from me.
“but it’s impossible now. Because as I said just now, I’m no longer in your view. Even in your heart too,”
“Nino..”
“I’m tired, Oh-chan. I want to sleep. Could you please leave now? Shut the door when you leaves,”
As I leaves the room, I could see how hard he’s holding himself from crying by gripping the mattress as tight as he could.
****
NEXT
ps: please bear with me. i can't find my emotion while writing this. either i am lack of emotion nowadays or because of my abilities to write is dissapearing.. lol.. please pray for me to recover from this problem.. ngee~~~
drabble.. gonna be a short update every now and then... i can't guarantee how often can i update this, but i'll try my best :)
yoroshiku~
edit: gomen.. this going to be an ongoing fic.. sorry i didn't put numbers update.. have put it now :)
Author: ica_90
Lenght: Drabble and Ongoing
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: 3 months left.. within this 3 months, he loves him once again.
“Nino…” I call him, In hope that he’ll wake up hearing my voices. But hope fails me. he didn’t wake up. in fact, it’s the second week he never wake up. 14 days since the last time I’ve talk to him.
Brain cancer, 4th stage. 3 month left.
Those words keep on repeating inside my head like forever since the first time I receives the news few month ago. I lost track of the days. It’s like counting how many times left for me to be with him.
People say that we will never acknowledge someone presence until he leaves us. Maybe, maybe that is what’s happening to me now. His words 3 months ago echoed in my mind
“let’s break up,” it feels so heavy when I hear he says those words. but being the selfish me, I concern less on his feeling.
“are you sure?” is the words that I replied, unable to hide the sense of relieves in my tone. I saw him nods, giving me one smile to hide his hurting heart. leaving the key on the table, he leaves the house.
I never feel guilty. Not at all. Ending this relation is what I’ve been thing for the past few weeks. Hence when he says it, I couldn’t help to feel relieve. I didn’t even ask him why eventhough it is so suspicious to suddenly breaking up. I never care. The moment I care about it, everything was too late.
“for god sake, Ninomiya! Hiding this from me, what do you think you’re doing?” my voice echoed inside the room. unable to hide my disappointment, I didn’t care of my environment. All I need is an answer of why he hides his disease from me.
“I’m doing what’s right, Oh-chan,” he said soft, didn’t lift up his face.
“right?” I ask, breathe starts to become unsteady. “which part of this is right? I didn’t see any!”
And then realization hits me.
“god, are you breaking up with me because of this? Because you know you’re dying?”
Silents.
“ANSWER ME!”
“no,” he pauses. “the reason why I broke up with you is because for the past few month, I’m no longer in your view oh-chan. you can’t see what’s happening to me. you didn’t realized for the past few months I been come back and forth to this hospital. You didn’t notices that I’ve been taking medicine everytime after our meal together. You didn’t notice that I’m dying because all that you notice is someone else! I broke up with you because you no longer love me,”
This time, it was me who’s speechless.
“if possible…” he wipes his tears. “I want you, the one that I love to stay by my side until the end of my life. but I don’t want you to stay because I ask you to stay. I want you to stay because you sincerely want to. Because you love me”
He pauses, pulling his face away from me.
“but it’s impossible now. Because as I said just now, I’m no longer in your view. Even in your heart too,”
“Nino..”
“I’m tired, Oh-chan. I want to sleep. Could you please leave now? Shut the door when you leaves,”
As I leaves the room, I could see how hard he’s holding himself from crying by gripping the mattress as tight as he could.
****
NEXT
ps: please bear with me. i can't find my emotion while writing this. either i am lack of emotion nowadays or because of my abilities to write is dissapearing.. lol.. please pray for me to recover from this problem.. ngee~~~
drabble.. gonna be a short update every now and then... i can't guarantee how often can i update this, but i'll try my best :)
yoroshiku~
edit: gomen.. this going to be an ongoing fic.. sorry i didn't put numbers update.. have put it now :)
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Date: 2013-04-02 03:17 am (UTC)I love this, and I will look forward to next! Ganbatte ne ^^
Thanks for sharing!
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Date: 2013-04-02 06:58 am (UTC)Anyway... Thanks for reading :)