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ica_90Title: Love at the Last Moment 2/?
Author: ica_90
Lenght: Drabble and Ongoing
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: 3 months left.. within this 3 months, he loves him once again.
Flashback
By the next day I came to visit him, the nurse tells me that he didn’t want to meet anyone. He requests to be alone.
I know what he’s doing. He’s trying to stay away from me. but I ignore it. when I sure all the nurses were not around, I sneak inside his room to find he’s sleeping. The nurse said he whined of the headache he feels, hence the doctor decides to give him the pain killer to reduce the pain. The medicines must have given the effect to him now.
I watch his peaceful sleeping face. Somehow, there’s something snapped inside me.
For the past few months, I felt like something is wrong somewhere in our relation. It’s not hate that I feel to him, it just maybe, I have lost my interest to continue our relation. It feels like every time spending together not worth even a second. There’s no burning sensation like we use to feels before. At least to me.
I know the reason to this; because I’m in love with someone else. And so he knows about it. yet, he never voice it out, not until yesterday. To think that, guilts takes over me. how selfish I have be. How jerk I have been this whole time. I sighs thinking that.
“you must be the stubborn person on earth, aren’t you?” his voice brings me back to reality. I turn to take a look at him. he didn’t opens his eyes, but I know he’s awake. I could see his forehead wrinkles, maybe because of the pain he feels.
“are you ok?” I ask when I saw he put his palms on his head.
“it’s normal… I’ve feel this before. Just this time, it’s hurt than before,” come to think about it, he did told me about this before. How he used to whined to me about his frequent headache, but often get ignored by me. damn. What have I do to him?
“ I bring you hamburger,” I said, trying to kill the awkwardness in the air.
“gomen… but, I don’t have any appetite to eat anything, oh-chan. eat them for me will you?” he says, smiling at me. I pout.
“but I cooked them for you,”
“though I don’t want to say this, you don’t have to, Oh-chan. i… don’t want it,”
“Kazu,” I grip his hand. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry for all the things I’ve done. I’m sorry for caring less about you before. But for now, please let me take care of you. I know you won’t forgive me..”
“wrong Oh-chan,” he cuts me. “when I decided to break up with you..” somehow my heart ache hearing the word. “I’ve decided to forgive you for whatever things you did to me. for causing me to hope for you to stay by my side, for loving you with no return, I forgive you for all that,”
He pauses for a while, bitting his lower lips.
“because I don’t want to see you anymore right after I step out from the house,”
“kazu…” I call him, soft only to stop by him once again
“There’s no point for taking care of someone who you didn’t love right?”
“but I want to!” I snapped.
“But I don’t want it! I told you I don’t want you to stay if you’re not sincerely love me!”
I now have no words. he’s right. I no longer love him. but I’m not cruel enough to leave him alone. Not in this state. If I did, what kind of person will I be.
“then let me stay next to you as a friend,” I said soft, plead in my voice.
No, I can’t leave him. I will never leave him. he always be next to me before. No matter how worst my conditions are.
I want to love him again. Maybe he didn’t want it anymore, but that’s the only things that I can do now.
I was waiting for his answer when all of sudden, he yells of agony. His hands started to grip, pulls his hair. His breathes starts to become unsteady. Here I know, the pain he feels attack him again.
At the moment, I don’t want to leave from his side, I reach the emergency button at the end of the bed. Before I know, I was now being hug by him. His grips at the back of my shirts was tight, he must be feeling so much pain at that time.
“please…” he pleaded for something that I didn’t know. Did he want me to stay? Or did he want me to leave? I didn’t know. And then his grips weaken. The next things I know, I was outside the room, watching the doctor and nurses inside, struggling to brings back his conscious.
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i got some times to update... so here it is...ok i lied.. i'm having the worst moment ever in my life... to cheer me up, i write something... sorry for any mistakes here...
i'm sure someone will be confuse with the way i make this story.. most of the situation here is a flash back. i note it with 'flashback'.. if there aren't the word, then it is current situation.. yoroshiku~~
Author: ica_90
Lenght: Drabble and Ongoing
Pairing: Ohmiya
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: 3 months left.. within this 3 months, he loves him once again.
Flashback
By the next day I came to visit him, the nurse tells me that he didn’t want to meet anyone. He requests to be alone.
I know what he’s doing. He’s trying to stay away from me. but I ignore it. when I sure all the nurses were not around, I sneak inside his room to find he’s sleeping. The nurse said he whined of the headache he feels, hence the doctor decides to give him the pain killer to reduce the pain. The medicines must have given the effect to him now.
I watch his peaceful sleeping face. Somehow, there’s something snapped inside me.
For the past few months, I felt like something is wrong somewhere in our relation. It’s not hate that I feel to him, it just maybe, I have lost my interest to continue our relation. It feels like every time spending together not worth even a second. There’s no burning sensation like we use to feels before. At least to me.
I know the reason to this; because I’m in love with someone else. And so he knows about it. yet, he never voice it out, not until yesterday. To think that, guilts takes over me. how selfish I have be. How jerk I have been this whole time. I sighs thinking that.
“you must be the stubborn person on earth, aren’t you?” his voice brings me back to reality. I turn to take a look at him. he didn’t opens his eyes, but I know he’s awake. I could see his forehead wrinkles, maybe because of the pain he feels.
“are you ok?” I ask when I saw he put his palms on his head.
“it’s normal… I’ve feel this before. Just this time, it’s hurt than before,” come to think about it, he did told me about this before. How he used to whined to me about his frequent headache, but often get ignored by me. damn. What have I do to him?
“ I bring you hamburger,” I said, trying to kill the awkwardness in the air.
“gomen… but, I don’t have any appetite to eat anything, oh-chan. eat them for me will you?” he says, smiling at me. I pout.
“but I cooked them for you,”
“though I don’t want to say this, you don’t have to, Oh-chan. i… don’t want it,”
“Kazu,” I grip his hand. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry for all the things I’ve done. I’m sorry for caring less about you before. But for now, please let me take care of you. I know you won’t forgive me..”
“wrong Oh-chan,” he cuts me. “when I decided to break up with you..” somehow my heart ache hearing the word. “I’ve decided to forgive you for whatever things you did to me. for causing me to hope for you to stay by my side, for loving you with no return, I forgive you for all that,”
He pauses for a while, bitting his lower lips.
“because I don’t want to see you anymore right after I step out from the house,”
“kazu…” I call him, soft only to stop by him once again
“There’s no point for taking care of someone who you didn’t love right?”
“but I want to!” I snapped.
“But I don’t want it! I told you I don’t want you to stay if you’re not sincerely love me!”
I now have no words. he’s right. I no longer love him. but I’m not cruel enough to leave him alone. Not in this state. If I did, what kind of person will I be.
“then let me stay next to you as a friend,” I said soft, plead in my voice.
No, I can’t leave him. I will never leave him. he always be next to me before. No matter how worst my conditions are.
I want to love him again. Maybe he didn’t want it anymore, but that’s the only things that I can do now.
I was waiting for his answer when all of sudden, he yells of agony. His hands started to grip, pulls his hair. His breathes starts to become unsteady. Here I know, the pain he feels attack him again.
At the moment, I don’t want to leave from his side, I reach the emergency button at the end of the bed. Before I know, I was now being hug by him. His grips at the back of my shirts was tight, he must be feeling so much pain at that time.
“please…” he pleaded for something that I didn’t know. Did he want me to stay? Or did he want me to leave? I didn’t know. And then his grips weaken. The next things I know, I was outside the room, watching the doctor and nurses inside, struggling to brings back his conscious.
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NEXT
i got some times to update... so here it is...
i'm sure someone will be confuse with the way i make this story.. most of the situation here is a flash back. i note it with 'flashback'.. if there aren't the word, then it is current situation.. yoroshiku~~
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Date: 2013-04-04 12:13 pm (UTC)i'M SOOOOO HAPPY TO read this update,,although it's a sad story,,
thank you so much for updating this,, :)))
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Date: 2013-04-09 02:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-04 02:21 pm (UTC)T____________T
nino~~~~
thank you so much for this, you write it so beautiful y'know >__
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Date: 2013-04-09 02:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-04 02:31 pm (UTC)it must be sad to know our lover loves someone else
thank you for update it~~
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Date: 2013-04-09 02:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-04 02:54 pm (UTC)i feel so sad to nino..
i hope he will be okay soon..
and who the one that ohno love now??
i'm curios with him..
hehe
thank you for your sharing and i'll wait for the next one patiently ^0^
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Date: 2013-04-09 02:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-05 03:25 am (UTC)Looking forward to next, thanks forthe update ^^
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Date: 2013-04-09 02:36 am (UTC)