[ongoing] Break (5/5) - Sakuraiba
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ica_90Title: Break (5/5)
Author: ica_90
Pairing: (main) Sakuraiba, Arashi (friendship)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst. Will change…
Summary: a rumor breaks them.
Disclaimer: Johnny owns everything. Yeah. *rolleyes*
Note: for Sho birthday. Will be updated every two days.
“I didn’t expect you to accept me back into your life, Aiba-chan,” Sho speaks breaking the silent they made once he finishes his story. “I’ve hurt you. And I know whatever happened between us is unfair. You were asked to leave and they keep me,”
Aiba doesn’t show any respond.
“But Aiba-chan. if you don’t think about us, think about the fans,”
Sho bites his lower lip.
“They need you… we need you… I need you,” Aiba turns to look at the man. He was lowering his head as he finished his words earlier, the last three words sounds mumble to him, but clears enough for him to hear.
“Think about the fans…” Aiba says, smirking. “You need me. Isn’t that sounds full of lies?” his face starts to change. Sho lift up his face to have a proper look at the man. But when he sees the serious face on Aiba’s face, he lowers his head once again. But then he heard Aiba sighs.
“How can I believe you that you’re telling me a truth? You push me away one year ago. You told me you can’t see me the way I see you. And now you’re here, telling me you need me? What was that for? So that you can pushes me once again? How DoS you can be?” Aiba snaps causing Sho to lose his words. Both of them keep staring at each other before Aiba sigh, takes away his sight from the older man. He moves away from Sho, his back facing the man.
"I’m sorry for what had happened to you," Aiba says without looking at the man. "But I think, it's already too late,"
"No it's not, sho snaps. “We still have chance to make it right again, Aiba-chan,"
"How?" he turns to look at the man again. "i already make the decision. I can't hurt her,"
"Masaki..."
"Mika-chan.... Is a good friend of mine," aiba could see hurt in Sho's eyes. "i can't hurt her. She always there for me. I can't break her when i already gave hope to her," Sho was speechless. There's a trail of tears on his cheeks as he was crying silently. He wants to beg, but he knows, a hard headed Aiba will always stick to his own decision.
But if he doesn’t, he knows he’ll regret.
He approach the man who’s about to leave. He hugs the man from behind, his nose on Aiba’s neck. The pain he feels in his chest was unbearable. Sho doesn’t sure if it was the pain from the heartbroken or because of the accident.
“I know this question will make me sound selfish, Aiba-chan,” Sho hugs the man even tighter. If this is one last time, let me hug him this much, he thought. “Don’t you love me anymore?”
Aiba stiffs. What an unfair question, he thought.
No, he wants to answer. But it’s a lie. No matter how far he tries to run, he will always love the man. But how about the one he already gave hope. He was hurt once, because of the hope he had on the man, the hope that Sho will love him the way he loves the man. But in the end, hopes fail him.
Slowly, he loosen Sho’s hug from him before moves away from the man. Just when Sho thought that Aiba will leave him with no answer, Aiba speaks without turn to look at him.
“Eventhough the jimusho allow me to get married and stay as Arashi, the thought of not being able to love you will give pain to the both of us,” he wraps the towel around his waist. “This is the best for the both of us, Sho-san. Please understand it,”
And then Aiba leaves.
How could I understand? Sho asks himself. Maybe Aiba was right. They’ll hurt if they stay together without being able to love each other. But isn’t it will be more hurt to look from a far, knowing the one he loves happy and he is not the reason of his happiness?
Sho never understand that.
The pain he felt from yesterday struck him again the moment he moves out from the pool. It happens everytime he thinks about the man, mending his broken sad feeling inside him by himself. But this time, it hurts even more. He hold his chest, the scar feels burning, weakens his strength as the pain grows intense.
He heard voices asking if he is alright but his strength seems to leave him. Before he could understand, his sight turns black.
****
Aiba walks as fast as he could towards the shop, ignoring every eye that is looking at him. He could hear people talking, whispering behind his back, but refuse to care with whatever those people were talking about.
He is confuses. Maybe he had made up his decision, but up till now, he never knows if his decision was the right one.
Mika is his childhood friend. They are close eventhough Aiba left for Tokyo last time.
She is a very nice girl to him and the fact that she’s among the people who supports him when he went back to Chiba a year ago makes Aiba thinks that he has find a right woman for his life.
But then, he just not sure if he will be able to love her the same way he loves Sho.
He keeps on walking towards the shop, lowering his head in order to avoid making eye contact with the people in the town when suddenly he bump on someone causing the two of them to fall on the ground.
“Seriously, Ma-kun…” Aiba lifts his head to take a look at the owner of the voice. “You really should throw away that habit of yours. It draws more attention to see people who walk with his nose almost reaching the road,”
“I’m not!” Aiba snaps while laughing. “What are you doing here, Mika-chan?”
Mika stick out her tongue towards the man before pull him to stand straight. They walk side by side to Aiba’s house.
“I went to the restaurant just now, but kaasan says you’re not there,”
“Sorry, I went out…”
“What are you sorry for? I should be the one to say that right? I mean I came without notice,”
Aiba stops, so does the girl. The two of them then stare at each other.
“It’s so not you. You always tell me if you want to see me. Is there something important?” Aiba ask, caressing the girl in front him cheeks before she stops his action but still holding the man’s hand.
“You’re still an idol, you know?” Aiba’s widen his eyes.
“What- I –“
“It’s your fault for not sending Ninomiya-san back today. Instead of going home, he comes to meet me,” Aiba shakes his head.
“That idiot…”
“But I think, you’re more idiot than him,” Mika jokingly said before pushes her fiancé to walk along with her. “Let’s find a close place to talk. I don’t want to bear the responsibilities if our conversation heard by someone else,”
Aiba doesn’t gives any word as a response to his fiancée words earlier but keeps walking along with her until they reach his house.
“Say, Ma-kun…,” Mika begins as they settle down at the living room. “You keep telling me friends never keep secret from each other right?”
Aiba nods.
“Then, why are you keeping secret from me?”
“Huh?”
“Why aren’t you telling me anything about this?” She says calmly while pushing the tabloid newspaper towards the idol. A story that was written one year ago was shown on the tabloid, causing to Aiba to get mad by his own assumption.
“Nino told you this?” he asks, obviously getting furious. But he is surprises when Mika calmly shakes his head.
“he told me that you’re still an idol, eventhough you were mess up in that scandal and no, he didn’t tell me what was it about,” Mika explains as she saw the tense face of Aiba.
“Then how did you know about this?” Aiba asks, confuse when he sees the calm face of his fiancée.
“curiousity kills me. Not that much though. I was curious, but I didn’t really want to find out about it. I thought that I can sort my mind out by doing some chores. But you know, I think god has told us that you and I are not destined for each other. I found this,” She pushes the tabloid again causing Aiba to roll his eyes, but unable to say a word.
Mika leaves with his thought as she heads to the kitchen before come back again with a drink. She pours the drink into the cups before the two of them drink it silently.
It drives him mad. How can she be so calm?
“Ninomiya-san means well, you know. he didn’t ask me to stop the marriages. He even congratulates me. He just hopes by telling me, I will lead you to make a right choice. They say it is fine for you to get married as long as you keep being one of them. It’s you leaving Arashi is the thing that he’ll never prefer,”
“Our marriage has nothing to do with what he prefers,” Aiba mumbles, rolls his eyes again. Mika chuckles a little before continue again.
“I thought that so. But after a while, I have this kind of thinking. Marriage supposes to be a new beginning. A happiness. But how could I be happy when you’re not?”
“Of course I am happy…”
“Even so, I don’t think I can handle the pressure for being an idol wife,” Mika cuts him, lowering his head as she speaks.
“Mika… look at me,” Aiba take his seat next to his fiancée. He puts both his hand on Mika’s cheeks, gently make her to look at him. “We can begin a new life with this. Being an idol is no longer what I want,”
“But being with him is what you want,” Mika cuts him, causing him to fall speechless. “You left one year ago, feeling mad, by the same time hurt. Why was that?”
Silent.
“Because of him. You love him and you have this thought of there’s no use for you to stay if you and him didn’t have the same feeling,”
Aiba rise up his head. There’s sadness in her tone when she said that. He sure she is when he saw the sadness shown in her eyes.
“Mika…”
“Stop lying to yourself, Ma-kun. This is not what you want. This is just a way for you to run away from your heartbreak isn’t it? This marriage will never work if you have that kind of feeling,” She holds the man hand. It is soft, Aiba feels like breaking when she does that.
At that moment, he was confused. It was few month ago, when he decided to propose Mika after they went out for dinner together.
“You always there for me,” Aiba says softly, loud enough to be heard by the girl. Mika lips form a smile.
“But… he always there right? Here,” She puts her hand on the man’s chest. “He is the one who always there in your heart. Not me,”
Aiba looks at her. She is still smiling, though Aiba know deep inside her heart, she is hurt. And he feels guilty for that. He takes her hand into his, gripping it tight, trying to assure her that it still can work. He just doesn’t want to hurt her after all the hope he has gave to her.
“You don’t give me any hope, Ma-kun. its fine,” she says as she caresses the man’s hand.
“You’re hurt,” Aiba says soft. She shakes his head.
“Trust me. I’ll be even more hurt if this marriage plan continues. I don’t want to live a life with someone who has someone else in his heart,”
Aiba bites his lip, hesitates causing Mika to sigh.
“Close your eyes, Ma-kun,” Aiba did as he was told. “Tell me. Who do you see?”
Here, Aiba feels even guiltier.
For a almost, he spend most of his time with his family, or even mika. But none of the images he had in his mind are they. Instead, sho appears as an image in his mind.
Every single memory he had on sho keeps appearing one after another. Sho laughs, sho smiles, sho sulking face, sho smirks, sho teasing him, sho staring at him. Sho hurt face when he told them that he getting married last night.
It's iritating, but by the same time his heart clenches when he see the last images. Sho is hurts. Their places change when it was sho's feeling which not reciprocates this time. But maybe, he just ego enough to forgive or to give the man another chance. But Mika was right. The more he said no to sho, he just lied to himself. It didn't only bring pain to him alone but it brings pain to another two persons. Both sho and Mika.
He opens his eyes to see his fiancée smiles at him.
"You get your answer now don't you?" she asks. She's calm, something that Aiba never understand why. Shouldn't she be mad or sad by the end that might happen?
"Won’t you regret it?" Aiba asks her and she shakes her head as her response.
"i will be more regret if i ever marry you," she says, giving him her best smile. "i don't want to live a life with someone who i know didn't love me the same way i love him,"
Seeing Aiba looking at her with a guilty look, she continues.
"After all, both of us are air-headed. Imagine what will our child turns to be? Chaos!" Aiba smack her head lightly before the two of them laughs by Mika imagination. Their smile fades after a while and the two of them keep staring at each other.
Mika lowers her head before Aiba drop a kiss on her forehead, hugging her.
"You’re my bestfriend,"
"i know,"
"Will you stay as my bestfriend?"Mika chuckles by aiba's question.
"Only if he not jealous over the fact. After all, i'm your ex-fiancée," she reminds her. Slowly she pulls off the ring from her finger, thrusting it into the man's hand before closing it firmly.
The two of them stays silent for a moment, before Mika stands from her place, starting to leave.
"i hope you will find a better man," Aiba says as he watches her leaving. She looks at his ex-fiancé before nodding with full of confidence.
"I’ll pray for a better future with Sakurai-san," she says, before leave him alone in the house.
****
It has been a few hours since Mika leaved him. But he keeps staying at the living room, staring at the empty veiling as there's something interesting there. He couldn't help wondering if he had made a right decision by letting her go for someone who had break his heart before.
He loves Sho, it's true. But he was scared of being hurt again.
But ever since he closed his eyes just now, Sho’s hurts face keep playing in his mind. Somehow it’s hurting him too.
“Why is it his face keep appearing?” he sighs thinking that.
He was about to fish out his phone to call the man when it vibrates in his pocket as someone calls him.
“nino?” he frown, seeing the name on his phone screen. Quickly, he presses the answer button.
“we’re in Chiba. Sho-chan faints at the onsen here just now. Hurry up!” Nino speaks in hurry once the call was pick up. Once he finish, he hung up the call, leaving Aiba dumbfounded by the sudden news.
Aiba never knows how but the next thing he knows is he is in the hospital, rushing to the lobby. He sees the other three Arashi members at the waiting area, worried. He rushes to their side, but fall speechless, not knowing how to starts the conversation.
“The doctor say he’s too pressure. He collapsed this evening,” you don’t have to told that, Jun. he’s tense because of me. Because I hurt him.
“It’s fine now if you want to meet him,” Nino said without looking at him. He lays his head at Ohno’s shoulder. “What is going to happen to us now ne, riida. We already lost a member. Are we gonna lose another one?”
Aiba shakes his head, a little offence by Nino’s word. He moves slowly towards the room, closing the door to give some privacy for the two of them.
He takes his seat at the chair next to the bed before he take his hand into his, kissing it tenderly. Sho pale face makes his heart clenching.
“Sho-chan,” he calls him weak, start to sobs as he about to speak again. “gomen yo. I didn’t mean to make you tense. I didn’t know that it’ll make you hurt like this,”
He pets the man’s hair, moves it aside to have a proper look of the man’s face. A face that he always fond of. A face of the man he loves from the bottom of his heart. but the one he loves now was now lying on the bed, weak, machines supporting him.
“wake up, Sho-chan. you told me to stay in Arashi. I guess, we need to to come up with another excuse on last time scandal. But we can think about it later. Just wake up, please,” he says as he wipes his tears. His another hand was gripping Sho’s hand so firmly.
“i-ittai…” Sho moans causing the man to panick.
“Sho-chan…”
“You grip my hand too tight Aiba-chan. I’m not sure if blood flowing properly there,” Sho says, causing Aiba to release his grips from the older man.
“But... but..” Aiba stutters.
“I just fall asleep. But you just grip me that tight, it’s hurt you know,” Sho jokes.
“But the machines….” He pauses, gritting his lips when he sees Sho confuses expression when he mentions about the machine.
“Nino…” both of the say in unison. They fell silent after that.
There is an awkward silent between the two of them as none of them try to start any conversation. Just when one of them would start one, another one will speak at the same time too.
“Are you going to stay?” Sho asks as Aiba allows him to speak first.Aiba nods.
“I’m sorry that you have to face me until arashi disband, ne,” he replies.
They fall into another awkward silent before the two of them closes their distance, drop a kiss on the man’s lips.
They’re fine.
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gomen Sho, this fics somehow dissapoints me. something happens to my laptop (virus maybe) and when i finish writing for about 3 pages, the text went missing, and i need to re-write it again. somehow, i just lost my ideas there.
demo... OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU SAKURAI-SAN. kotoshi mo ganbaremasho ne. atashi mo! yosh.
to all readers. thanks for reading. ngeee~
Author: ica_90
Pairing: (main) Sakuraiba, Arashi (friendship)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst. Will change…
Summary: a rumor breaks them.
Disclaimer: Johnny owns everything. Yeah. *rolleyes*
Note: for Sho birthday. Will be updated every two days.
“I didn’t expect you to accept me back into your life, Aiba-chan,” Sho speaks breaking the silent they made once he finishes his story. “I’ve hurt you. And I know whatever happened between us is unfair. You were asked to leave and they keep me,”
Aiba doesn’t show any respond.
“But Aiba-chan. if you don’t think about us, think about the fans,”
Sho bites his lower lip.
“They need you… we need you… I need you,” Aiba turns to look at the man. He was lowering his head as he finished his words earlier, the last three words sounds mumble to him, but clears enough for him to hear.
“Think about the fans…” Aiba says, smirking. “You need me. Isn’t that sounds full of lies?” his face starts to change. Sho lift up his face to have a proper look at the man. But when he sees the serious face on Aiba’s face, he lowers his head once again. But then he heard Aiba sighs.
“How can I believe you that you’re telling me a truth? You push me away one year ago. You told me you can’t see me the way I see you. And now you’re here, telling me you need me? What was that for? So that you can pushes me once again? How DoS you can be?” Aiba snaps causing Sho to lose his words. Both of them keep staring at each other before Aiba sigh, takes away his sight from the older man. He moves away from Sho, his back facing the man.
"I’m sorry for what had happened to you," Aiba says without looking at the man. "But I think, it's already too late,"
"No it's not, sho snaps. “We still have chance to make it right again, Aiba-chan,"
"How?" he turns to look at the man again. "i already make the decision. I can't hurt her,"
"Masaki..."
"Mika-chan.... Is a good friend of mine," aiba could see hurt in Sho's eyes. "i can't hurt her. She always there for me. I can't break her when i already gave hope to her," Sho was speechless. There's a trail of tears on his cheeks as he was crying silently. He wants to beg, but he knows, a hard headed Aiba will always stick to his own decision.
But if he doesn’t, he knows he’ll regret.
He approach the man who’s about to leave. He hugs the man from behind, his nose on Aiba’s neck. The pain he feels in his chest was unbearable. Sho doesn’t sure if it was the pain from the heartbroken or because of the accident.
“I know this question will make me sound selfish, Aiba-chan,” Sho hugs the man even tighter. If this is one last time, let me hug him this much, he thought. “Don’t you love me anymore?”
Aiba stiffs. What an unfair question, he thought.
No, he wants to answer. But it’s a lie. No matter how far he tries to run, he will always love the man. But how about the one he already gave hope. He was hurt once, because of the hope he had on the man, the hope that Sho will love him the way he loves the man. But in the end, hopes fail him.
Slowly, he loosen Sho’s hug from him before moves away from the man. Just when Sho thought that Aiba will leave him with no answer, Aiba speaks without turn to look at him.
“Eventhough the jimusho allow me to get married and stay as Arashi, the thought of not being able to love you will give pain to the both of us,” he wraps the towel around his waist. “This is the best for the both of us, Sho-san. Please understand it,”
And then Aiba leaves.
How could I understand? Sho asks himself. Maybe Aiba was right. They’ll hurt if they stay together without being able to love each other. But isn’t it will be more hurt to look from a far, knowing the one he loves happy and he is not the reason of his happiness?
Sho never understand that.
The pain he felt from yesterday struck him again the moment he moves out from the pool. It happens everytime he thinks about the man, mending his broken sad feeling inside him by himself. But this time, it hurts even more. He hold his chest, the scar feels burning, weakens his strength as the pain grows intense.
He heard voices asking if he is alright but his strength seems to leave him. Before he could understand, his sight turns black.
****
Aiba walks as fast as he could towards the shop, ignoring every eye that is looking at him. He could hear people talking, whispering behind his back, but refuse to care with whatever those people were talking about.
He is confuses. Maybe he had made up his decision, but up till now, he never knows if his decision was the right one.
Mika is his childhood friend. They are close eventhough Aiba left for Tokyo last time.
She is a very nice girl to him and the fact that she’s among the people who supports him when he went back to Chiba a year ago makes Aiba thinks that he has find a right woman for his life.
But then, he just not sure if he will be able to love her the same way he loves Sho.
He keeps on walking towards the shop, lowering his head in order to avoid making eye contact with the people in the town when suddenly he bump on someone causing the two of them to fall on the ground.
“Seriously, Ma-kun…” Aiba lifts his head to take a look at the owner of the voice. “You really should throw away that habit of yours. It draws more attention to see people who walk with his nose almost reaching the road,”
“I’m not!” Aiba snaps while laughing. “What are you doing here, Mika-chan?”
Mika stick out her tongue towards the man before pull him to stand straight. They walk side by side to Aiba’s house.
“I went to the restaurant just now, but kaasan says you’re not there,”
“Sorry, I went out…”
“What are you sorry for? I should be the one to say that right? I mean I came without notice,”
Aiba stops, so does the girl. The two of them then stare at each other.
“It’s so not you. You always tell me if you want to see me. Is there something important?” Aiba ask, caressing the girl in front him cheeks before she stops his action but still holding the man’s hand.
“You’re still an idol, you know?” Aiba’s widen his eyes.
“What- I –“
“It’s your fault for not sending Ninomiya-san back today. Instead of going home, he comes to meet me,” Aiba shakes his head.
“That idiot…”
“But I think, you’re more idiot than him,” Mika jokingly said before pushes her fiancé to walk along with her. “Let’s find a close place to talk. I don’t want to bear the responsibilities if our conversation heard by someone else,”
Aiba doesn’t gives any word as a response to his fiancée words earlier but keeps walking along with her until they reach his house.
“Say, Ma-kun…,” Mika begins as they settle down at the living room. “You keep telling me friends never keep secret from each other right?”
Aiba nods.
“Then, why are you keeping secret from me?”
“Huh?”
“Why aren’t you telling me anything about this?” She says calmly while pushing the tabloid newspaper towards the idol. A story that was written one year ago was shown on the tabloid, causing to Aiba to get mad by his own assumption.
“Nino told you this?” he asks, obviously getting furious. But he is surprises when Mika calmly shakes his head.
“he told me that you’re still an idol, eventhough you were mess up in that scandal and no, he didn’t tell me what was it about,” Mika explains as she saw the tense face of Aiba.
“Then how did you know about this?” Aiba asks, confuse when he sees the calm face of his fiancée.
“curiousity kills me. Not that much though. I was curious, but I didn’t really want to find out about it. I thought that I can sort my mind out by doing some chores. But you know, I think god has told us that you and I are not destined for each other. I found this,” She pushes the tabloid again causing Aiba to roll his eyes, but unable to say a word.
Mika leaves with his thought as she heads to the kitchen before come back again with a drink. She pours the drink into the cups before the two of them drink it silently.
It drives him mad. How can she be so calm?
“Ninomiya-san means well, you know. he didn’t ask me to stop the marriages. He even congratulates me. He just hopes by telling me, I will lead you to make a right choice. They say it is fine for you to get married as long as you keep being one of them. It’s you leaving Arashi is the thing that he’ll never prefer,”
“Our marriage has nothing to do with what he prefers,” Aiba mumbles, rolls his eyes again. Mika chuckles a little before continue again.
“I thought that so. But after a while, I have this kind of thinking. Marriage supposes to be a new beginning. A happiness. But how could I be happy when you’re not?”
“Of course I am happy…”
“Even so, I don’t think I can handle the pressure for being an idol wife,” Mika cuts him, lowering his head as she speaks.
“Mika… look at me,” Aiba take his seat next to his fiancée. He puts both his hand on Mika’s cheeks, gently make her to look at him. “We can begin a new life with this. Being an idol is no longer what I want,”
“But being with him is what you want,” Mika cuts him, causing him to fall speechless. “You left one year ago, feeling mad, by the same time hurt. Why was that?”
Silent.
“Because of him. You love him and you have this thought of there’s no use for you to stay if you and him didn’t have the same feeling,”
Aiba rise up his head. There’s sadness in her tone when she said that. He sure she is when he saw the sadness shown in her eyes.
“Mika…”
“Stop lying to yourself, Ma-kun. This is not what you want. This is just a way for you to run away from your heartbreak isn’t it? This marriage will never work if you have that kind of feeling,” She holds the man hand. It is soft, Aiba feels like breaking when she does that.
At that moment, he was confused. It was few month ago, when he decided to propose Mika after they went out for dinner together.
“You always there for me,” Aiba says softly, loud enough to be heard by the girl. Mika lips form a smile.
“But… he always there right? Here,” She puts her hand on the man’s chest. “He is the one who always there in your heart. Not me,”
Aiba looks at her. She is still smiling, though Aiba know deep inside her heart, she is hurt. And he feels guilty for that. He takes her hand into his, gripping it tight, trying to assure her that it still can work. He just doesn’t want to hurt her after all the hope he has gave to her.
“You don’t give me any hope, Ma-kun. its fine,” she says as she caresses the man’s hand.
“You’re hurt,” Aiba says soft. She shakes his head.
“Trust me. I’ll be even more hurt if this marriage plan continues. I don’t want to live a life with someone who has someone else in his heart,”
Aiba bites his lip, hesitates causing Mika to sigh.
“Close your eyes, Ma-kun,” Aiba did as he was told. “Tell me. Who do you see?”
Here, Aiba feels even guiltier.
For a almost, he spend most of his time with his family, or even mika. But none of the images he had in his mind are they. Instead, sho appears as an image in his mind.
Every single memory he had on sho keeps appearing one after another. Sho laughs, sho smiles, sho sulking face, sho smirks, sho teasing him, sho staring at him. Sho hurt face when he told them that he getting married last night.
It's iritating, but by the same time his heart clenches when he see the last images. Sho is hurts. Their places change when it was sho's feeling which not reciprocates this time. But maybe, he just ego enough to forgive or to give the man another chance. But Mika was right. The more he said no to sho, he just lied to himself. It didn't only bring pain to him alone but it brings pain to another two persons. Both sho and Mika.
He opens his eyes to see his fiancée smiles at him.
"You get your answer now don't you?" she asks. She's calm, something that Aiba never understand why. Shouldn't she be mad or sad by the end that might happen?
"Won’t you regret it?" Aiba asks her and she shakes her head as her response.
"i will be more regret if i ever marry you," she says, giving him her best smile. "i don't want to live a life with someone who i know didn't love me the same way i love him,"
Seeing Aiba looking at her with a guilty look, she continues.
"After all, both of us are air-headed. Imagine what will our child turns to be? Chaos!" Aiba smack her head lightly before the two of them laughs by Mika imagination. Their smile fades after a while and the two of them keep staring at each other.
Mika lowers her head before Aiba drop a kiss on her forehead, hugging her.
"You’re my bestfriend,"
"i know,"
"Will you stay as my bestfriend?"Mika chuckles by aiba's question.
"Only if he not jealous over the fact. After all, i'm your ex-fiancée," she reminds her. Slowly she pulls off the ring from her finger, thrusting it into the man's hand before closing it firmly.
The two of them stays silent for a moment, before Mika stands from her place, starting to leave.
"i hope you will find a better man," Aiba says as he watches her leaving. She looks at his ex-fiancé before nodding with full of confidence.
"I’ll pray for a better future with Sakurai-san," she says, before leave him alone in the house.
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It has been a few hours since Mika leaved him. But he keeps staying at the living room, staring at the empty veiling as there's something interesting there. He couldn't help wondering if he had made a right decision by letting her go for someone who had break his heart before.
He loves Sho, it's true. But he was scared of being hurt again.
But ever since he closed his eyes just now, Sho’s hurts face keep playing in his mind. Somehow it’s hurting him too.
“Why is it his face keep appearing?” he sighs thinking that.
He was about to fish out his phone to call the man when it vibrates in his pocket as someone calls him.
“nino?” he frown, seeing the name on his phone screen. Quickly, he presses the answer button.
“we’re in Chiba. Sho-chan faints at the onsen here just now. Hurry up!” Nino speaks in hurry once the call was pick up. Once he finish, he hung up the call, leaving Aiba dumbfounded by the sudden news.
Aiba never knows how but the next thing he knows is he is in the hospital, rushing to the lobby. He sees the other three Arashi members at the waiting area, worried. He rushes to their side, but fall speechless, not knowing how to starts the conversation.
“The doctor say he’s too pressure. He collapsed this evening,” you don’t have to told that, Jun. he’s tense because of me. Because I hurt him.
“It’s fine now if you want to meet him,” Nino said without looking at him. He lays his head at Ohno’s shoulder. “What is going to happen to us now ne, riida. We already lost a member. Are we gonna lose another one?”
Aiba shakes his head, a little offence by Nino’s word. He moves slowly towards the room, closing the door to give some privacy for the two of them.
He takes his seat at the chair next to the bed before he take his hand into his, kissing it tenderly. Sho pale face makes his heart clenching.
“Sho-chan,” he calls him weak, start to sobs as he about to speak again. “gomen yo. I didn’t mean to make you tense. I didn’t know that it’ll make you hurt like this,”
He pets the man’s hair, moves it aside to have a proper look of the man’s face. A face that he always fond of. A face of the man he loves from the bottom of his heart. but the one he loves now was now lying on the bed, weak, machines supporting him.
“wake up, Sho-chan. you told me to stay in Arashi. I guess, we need to to come up with another excuse on last time scandal. But we can think about it later. Just wake up, please,” he says as he wipes his tears. His another hand was gripping Sho’s hand so firmly.
“i-ittai…” Sho moans causing the man to panick.
“Sho-chan…”
“You grip my hand too tight Aiba-chan. I’m not sure if blood flowing properly there,” Sho says, causing Aiba to release his grips from the older man.
“But... but..” Aiba stutters.
“I just fall asleep. But you just grip me that tight, it’s hurt you know,” Sho jokes.
“But the machines….” He pauses, gritting his lips when he sees Sho confuses expression when he mentions about the machine.
“Nino…” both of the say in unison. They fell silent after that.
There is an awkward silent between the two of them as none of them try to start any conversation. Just when one of them would start one, another one will speak at the same time too.
“Are you going to stay?” Sho asks as Aiba allows him to speak first.Aiba nods.
“I’m sorry that you have to face me until arashi disband, ne,” he replies.
They fall into another awkward silent before the two of them closes their distance, drop a kiss on the man’s lips.
They’re fine.
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gomen Sho, this fics somehow dissapoints me. something happens to my laptop (virus maybe) and when i finish writing for about 3 pages, the text went missing, and i need to re-write it again. somehow, i just lost my ideas there.
demo... OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU SAKURAI-SAN. kotoshi mo ganbaremasho ne. atashi mo! yosh.
to all readers. thanks for reading. ngeee~
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Date: 2014-01-29 07:26 pm (UTC)The final isso sweet!!! *.*
Thanks for your hard work and waiting for more!!!! ^.^
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Date: 2014-02-03 12:14 pm (UTC)thanks for reading and commenting :)
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Date: 2014-01-30 12:08 am (UTC)and Nino's prank at the end hahaha, you really had me worried for a moment you know
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Date: 2014-02-03 12:15 pm (UTC)thanks a lot for reading and commenting :)
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Date: 2014-01-30 03:05 am (UTC)and Nino :) Nino knows what say for Aiba gives the first step jajaja “What is going to happen to us now ne, riida. We already lost a member. Are we gonna lose another one?” jajaj yeah Nino knows XD
well that things happens, ne. Thank you for sharing!
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Date: 2014-02-03 12:15 pm (UTC)uhuhu
thanks a lot for reading :)