[Ongoing] One more chance - Ohmiya (5/5)
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ica_90Title: One more Chance (5/5)
Author: ica_90
Pairing: Ohmiya (main), other pairing are mentioned, hinted later.
Genre: Angst for this one
Rating: PG to NC-17
Summary: Nino alive was like a second chance for Ohno. but it isn't one when all Nino does was setting up a wall between them.
Disclaimer: fanfiction. fiction. i know them not. wait i know them as arashi, not personally.own the plot, not the owner of the name
Note: sequel of Maybe a Goodbye. unbeta -.-""
this is for everyone who was asking for sequel... too bad, i wrote it too long.. ugh -.-"
Part FIVE
He woke up the next morning only to see a disgusted glare from Nino. The man didn’t say even a word though, not until Ohno tried to reach him, Nino pushed his hand away, hard as if his touch will kill him if he ever managed to.
“Good morning, Ohno-san,” Nino mockingly great him, his lips forming a disgusted smirk. “How was my ass last night, Ohno-san? Did it manage to satisfy you? Of course it did, right? I even came twice last night,”
“Nino, I-“
“I didn’t send you home just to be fucked by you, Ohno-san,” Nino snapped at him. ”You’re revenging on me, aren’t you? For fucking you again and again when it was against your decision before?”
“I’m not!” Ohno denied the accusation.
“Then, what happened last night?”
Ohno didn’t have an answer to that. Wrong. He did have an answer, but no matter how much he looked at it, he know, Nino would never surrender to it. Yes, they fucked last night. In term of words, it was. In term of intimacy, Ohno was sure it wasn’t only a one fuck session. He made love to the man. But how does that make any difference when Nino didn’t feel the same?
Thing happened last night was not because of revenge. That never existed in his mind. Not even once. Things happened last night happened for a reason though; he desperately wanted the man. But it’s clear now how much the man didn’t want him anymore.
And Ohno couldn’t find any other word to explain how much hurt he felt at the moment by that fact.
Nino clicked his tongue in annoyance. Looking at Ohno now disgusted him. He refused to wait anymore as staying made he thought all the hurt he had felt before. He had the chance to have happiness and he wanted it. And the happiness, was definitely not with Ohno.
He was about to remove himself from the bed when a hand stopped him by grabbing his wrist.
“Don’t leave,” Ohno said desperately. “I beg you,”
Nino chuckled. There’s nothing funny in the man’s words. His chuckle was full with a mocking intention.
“When you did that before, you didn’t even give me a chance to beg you either. Why should I stay after everything you have done?”
Ohno lowered his head. He couldn’t hold his tears anymore. He let them fell freely on his cheek as he muttered his reply.
“Because I love you,”
Nino chuckled again.
“I wonder what you really think about me, Ohno-san. You dumped me before and now you’re saying you love me? You broke my heart to a million pieces before just to be with Jun and now that Jun rejected you, you want to be with me again? Why should I even consider you again after all the things you have done? I’m not a dustbin. A place for people to dump something useless like you. And I’m not a trash either. You dumped me before, but now I have a better life and for your information, my dictionary of happiness doesn’t include you. Now tell me again, Ohno-san. Why should I take you again, someone who has taken me for granted and just want me back just because his original plan doesn’t work?”
“Because I love you,” he repeated, sounded desperate to Nino’s ears. “I love you, so much that watching you from a far hurts me. I can’t hold you, I can’t feel your warmth. I can’t hear you laugh. All that I received was just a cold stare. I regret everything and I just want you now. Please….”
He knew he didn’t deserve it. He perfectly understood it. But still, watching Nino shook his head with a disgusted face crumbled everything. His heart, feeling, life .Everything. And he just lost. For once, he prayed for God to take his life now. If he can’t have Nino again, then everything was just meaningless.
“I’m sorry. But last time was too much, Ohno-san. I can’t handle the risk of heartbroken again,” Nino said coldly, refused to look at him at all as he moved away to the edge of the bed. “let’s move on,”
But he didn’t want to! If it was something that he wanted, he would have done it long ago. But he couldn’t. He refused to.
Before Nino could stand, he grabbed the man by his hand, making the man to sit on the bed again before Ohno hugged Nino from behind. Tears that had fallen from before dropped on Nino’s shoulder. They stayed in the position for quite a moment, no one broke the silent. Their skin met, secretly enjoying the warmth of each other.
But Nino knew they shouldn’t. He knew another minute of staying, will result in him surrendering to the man’s request. He wanted to move away, but Ohno tightened the hug,
“Just a little more, I just…” want to feel your warmth, for the last time, was what he wanted to say. But he couldn’t. All the words stuck in his throat, nothing could leave his mouth. But in the end, the emotion was too much. How could he handle everything, when he knew that he won’t have the chance again. He just lost Nino and there’s no possibilities for them as ‘us’ again.
With tears falling from his eyes, Ohno dropped a kiss on Nino’s shoulder, trying so hard to not choke on his words again.
“I’ve got a chance before, and I ruined it,” he paused, kissing the man’s shoulder again. His lips shivered as he started to speak again. As he paused, gathering his courage he will kissed the man on his shoulder again, trying to tell the man how much he wanted him, he needed Nino in his life again.
“I don’t deserved the second chance,” he paused, biting his lips.
His hand tighten the embrace he had on Nino’s. he didn’t want to let go of the man.
“remember that one time you tell me when you kissed my shoulder? You said that kissing on the shoulders show how much we want someone,” he kissed Nino’s shoulder once again, trailing the kiss to his nape to his other shoulder.
“I really want you. I really do,” he said, burying his face on the man’s neck. “I beg you, Kazu. One more chance.. that’s all I need. I won’t ruin it again… please,” his lips shivered as he begged those words. what he felt now was nothing other than painful stab. His hand was weakened by the frustration, but still he tried with all he might, hugging the man from behind trying to send the man a message, hoping for another chance, hoping that the man would never leave him.
But in the end, he received nothing as reply. It was a few seconds later Nino’s hand was on his, loosening the hug before he stood from the bed, wore back all his clothes. And here Ohno knew, he didn’t get the chance that he was hoping for. He just lost it.
Ohno couldn’t watch the man leave. It’s hurt, damn hurt to see the fact that he just lost the man. It must have been the same feeling Nino felt before. He refused to let his sight from following Nino who was leaving his house, leaving him in a matter of sense. His thought stopped when he heard the sound of the front door being closed. Once again, he couldn’t handle it.
Pulling the blanket, he covered his naked body, hoping that he will sleep so that he could forget all the pain. But indeed it wasn’t that easy.
***
Four hours, he kept staring at the empty white ceiling. No he couldn’t sleep, not when every time he tried to close his eyes and Nino’s face will be the one to appear in his dream, sending all the hurt of despair stabbing his heart again and again.
He finally understood how meaningless the life is without the one we love most. He finally understood what Nino meant before, his life was ceased to have a meaning when he was gone. What Nino felt before, he felt it now. It’s karma and he deserved it.
His mind couldn’t think straight anymore. The pain was building stronger and the only thing he could think in his mind is dying.
He removed himself from the bed, headed to the kitchen before he grabbed the knife on the counter. He just needed to do it fast as the pain he felt now was unbearable. And when he slit his wrist with one deep slit, he couldn’t tell anymore the pain he felt was from the slit on his wrist or from his broken heart.
He leaned to the wall; slid down as he flipped open his phone, trying to find a Nino pic in his phone memory. He found one; a picture of Nino and him, the one from the magazine last time. They were so close, Nino’s laugh that day played in his mind. Too bad, those happy days didn’t last forever in the end.
Blood was oozing out from the wound. His sight was getting blurry. Rather than panic, he was actually laughing; at his own stupidity. It’s fine. This was his decision after all. His life was meaningless if he can’t have Nino again in his life. Somehow, he laughed again at himself as he was thinking at how pathetic his life had been. He let the man go before, crushed his heart and now he wanted Nino back? Pathetic isn’t it? And now when he couldn’t have him anymore, all he had in his heads was it’s better for him to die. Maybe by this, he can protect Nino even from a far. Just as what he had promised before.
“Ohno-san…” a voice called for him. But he never replied to the call. His energy was draining and he was sure enough that his mind is tricking him when he heard Nino’s voice. The voice repeated his name again and again, it felt like echoing in his head. There’s no possible way Nino would come to find him again. He left. He never turned back when he left. He’s gone, isn’t he?
“Oh-chan!” the voice yelled this time. And this time, he was sure it is Nino. With the last energy he had, slowly he opened his eyes, only to see Nino looking at him in horror, rushing towards him before took him in his embrace
“Oh-chan… stupid!” Nino cursed, tears were dropping down to his cheeks, making their way down onto Ohno’s shirt.
Ohno noticed how Nino’s hand was trembling as he was holding his hand. Ohno could feel a sheet wrapping around the wound on his wrist, trying to stop the blood from losing out from the man’s body. But he had lost too much blood. His energy was drained off. His breaths were short. It’s almost time, he said to himself. He felt so sleepy, so tired. The heartbreak tired him, he needed a rest, maybe forever.
“Open you eyes, idiot! Don’t you dare!” Nino yelled to his ears. His hand was shaking as he dial the emergency number. But Ohno stopped him, holding the man’s hand to stop him from dialing the number. He could see tears on Nino’s cheek. Why are you crying, Kazu? Isn’t this what you want, kazu? I’m giving you the happiness you need, Kazu, why are you still crying? But all the words stopped inside his throat.
“Daijoubu, you’ll… be fine,” he said, his hand was finding Nino’s face, caressing it weakly, wiping away the tears on the man’s face. Gosh, if he ever did that before, maybe Nino would still be there with him, maybe they’ll leave happily.
But he didn’t. Even if they had the chance now, it was already too late for it.
“I love you, Kazu,” he said, staring the man deep into his eyes, hoping his words would reach the man’s heart. Nino’s tears fell on his cheeks, his lips shivered as he replied the man with the same words.
“I love you too, Satoshi,” he said, stuttered. “Don’t die… please,”
Ohno swore he tried to smile. But he wasn’t sure if he did. Because the only thing he could see was darkness.
******
The smell of the medicine filled his nostril as he woke up. His head felt dizzy, his hand felt so painful as he tried to move it. He tried to remember what had happened before but the more he tried, the more it felt aching. He tried to move his other hand to hold his head but it felt so heavy, as if some weight was placed on it. Someone to be exact.
He turned to his side only to see Nino sitting on the chair next to the bed, his head was on the bed while their hands were linking together. The memories came back to him. While it did hurt him, watching Nino’s sleeping face next to him eased the pain.
He kept staring at the man’s face for quite a while, until suddenly, Nino’s eyes snapped open and the man quickly removed himself from where he was. He sat straight, letting go Ohno’s hand that he’s been holding since last night.
“You’re awake,” he stated a matter of factly. Ohno nodded before they created one awkward silence between them.
The urge to have Nino again in his life resurfaced once again in his mind. He thought he had finally let it go when he decided to kill himself last time, but indeed it wasn’t that easy. But will Nino forgive him now? He was sure enough he heard the man said “I love you too, Satoshi” last time. But was it the truth? What if it’s just something to make him happy in those kinds of time and situation? Ohno never knew. But still, he’ll lose nothing if he try won’t he?
“Kazu, I-“
“Second chance, Satoshi,” Nino cut without looking at the man. He was hesitating at first, but after a while of playing with his shirt, his hand found Ohno’s, entwining their fingers together before gripping it hard trying to tell him all the hope he had in him. “Don’t ruin it. Or I’m going to kill you for real this time. And then I’ll kill myself,”
He rose up his head, his eyes meeting Ohno’s.
Ohno could see how the man’s eyes were brimming with tears. Nino’s holding up his tears, he thought. It confirmed him when he heard the man sobbed, refusing to look at him. Gripping Nino’s hand as tightly as his energy let him, he replied.
“I won’t, Kazu. And you won’t too” his lips formed a weak smile, but Ohno knew his sincerity will reach Nino.
He was wondering if it was the right time to say it again, but watching Nino biting his lips, eyes brimming with tears, Ohno know he should.
“I really love you, Kazu. I really do,”
Nino didn’t replied. Tears start falling from his eyes. But Ohno still had another thing to say,
Responding to Nino’s earlier grip, he copied the same before spoke again. “thank you... for the another chance,”
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owari desu~ sayonara~
Author: ica_90
Pairing: Ohmiya (main), other pairing are mentioned, hinted later.
Genre: Angst for this one
Rating: PG to NC-17
Summary: Nino alive was like a second chance for Ohno. but it isn't one when all Nino does was setting up a wall between them.
Disclaimer: fanfiction. fiction. i know them not. wait i know them as arashi, not personally.own the plot, not the owner of the name
Note: sequel of Maybe a Goodbye. unbeta -.-""
this is for everyone who was asking for sequel... too bad, i wrote it too long.. ugh -.-"
Part FIVE
He woke up the next morning only to see a disgusted glare from Nino. The man didn’t say even a word though, not until Ohno tried to reach him, Nino pushed his hand away, hard as if his touch will kill him if he ever managed to.
“Good morning, Ohno-san,” Nino mockingly great him, his lips forming a disgusted smirk. “How was my ass last night, Ohno-san? Did it manage to satisfy you? Of course it did, right? I even came twice last night,”
“Nino, I-“
“I didn’t send you home just to be fucked by you, Ohno-san,” Nino snapped at him. ”You’re revenging on me, aren’t you? For fucking you again and again when it was against your decision before?”
“I’m not!” Ohno denied the accusation.
“Then, what happened last night?”
Ohno didn’t have an answer to that. Wrong. He did have an answer, but no matter how much he looked at it, he know, Nino would never surrender to it. Yes, they fucked last night. In term of words, it was. In term of intimacy, Ohno was sure it wasn’t only a one fuck session. He made love to the man. But how does that make any difference when Nino didn’t feel the same?
Thing happened last night was not because of revenge. That never existed in his mind. Not even once. Things happened last night happened for a reason though; he desperately wanted the man. But it’s clear now how much the man didn’t want him anymore.
And Ohno couldn’t find any other word to explain how much hurt he felt at the moment by that fact.
Nino clicked his tongue in annoyance. Looking at Ohno now disgusted him. He refused to wait anymore as staying made he thought all the hurt he had felt before. He had the chance to have happiness and he wanted it. And the happiness, was definitely not with Ohno.
He was about to remove himself from the bed when a hand stopped him by grabbing his wrist.
“Don’t leave,” Ohno said desperately. “I beg you,”
Nino chuckled. There’s nothing funny in the man’s words. His chuckle was full with a mocking intention.
“When you did that before, you didn’t even give me a chance to beg you either. Why should I stay after everything you have done?”
Ohno lowered his head. He couldn’t hold his tears anymore. He let them fell freely on his cheek as he muttered his reply.
“Because I love you,”
Nino chuckled again.
“I wonder what you really think about me, Ohno-san. You dumped me before and now you’re saying you love me? You broke my heart to a million pieces before just to be with Jun and now that Jun rejected you, you want to be with me again? Why should I even consider you again after all the things you have done? I’m not a dustbin. A place for people to dump something useless like you. And I’m not a trash either. You dumped me before, but now I have a better life and for your information, my dictionary of happiness doesn’t include you. Now tell me again, Ohno-san. Why should I take you again, someone who has taken me for granted and just want me back just because his original plan doesn’t work?”
“Because I love you,” he repeated, sounded desperate to Nino’s ears. “I love you, so much that watching you from a far hurts me. I can’t hold you, I can’t feel your warmth. I can’t hear you laugh. All that I received was just a cold stare. I regret everything and I just want you now. Please….”
He knew he didn’t deserve it. He perfectly understood it. But still, watching Nino shook his head with a disgusted face crumbled everything. His heart, feeling, life .Everything. And he just lost. For once, he prayed for God to take his life now. If he can’t have Nino again, then everything was just meaningless.
“I’m sorry. But last time was too much, Ohno-san. I can’t handle the risk of heartbroken again,” Nino said coldly, refused to look at him at all as he moved away to the edge of the bed. “let’s move on,”
But he didn’t want to! If it was something that he wanted, he would have done it long ago. But he couldn’t. He refused to.
Before Nino could stand, he grabbed the man by his hand, making the man to sit on the bed again before Ohno hugged Nino from behind. Tears that had fallen from before dropped on Nino’s shoulder. They stayed in the position for quite a moment, no one broke the silent. Their skin met, secretly enjoying the warmth of each other.
But Nino knew they shouldn’t. He knew another minute of staying, will result in him surrendering to the man’s request. He wanted to move away, but Ohno tightened the hug,
“Just a little more, I just…” want to feel your warmth, for the last time, was what he wanted to say. But he couldn’t. All the words stuck in his throat, nothing could leave his mouth. But in the end, the emotion was too much. How could he handle everything, when he knew that he won’t have the chance again. He just lost Nino and there’s no possibilities for them as ‘us’ again.
With tears falling from his eyes, Ohno dropped a kiss on Nino’s shoulder, trying so hard to not choke on his words again.
“I’ve got a chance before, and I ruined it,” he paused, kissing the man’s shoulder again. His lips shivered as he started to speak again. As he paused, gathering his courage he will kissed the man on his shoulder again, trying to tell the man how much he wanted him, he needed Nino in his life again.
“I don’t deserved the second chance,” he paused, biting his lips.
His hand tighten the embrace he had on Nino’s. he didn’t want to let go of the man.
“remember that one time you tell me when you kissed my shoulder? You said that kissing on the shoulders show how much we want someone,” he kissed Nino’s shoulder once again, trailing the kiss to his nape to his other shoulder.
“I really want you. I really do,” he said, burying his face on the man’s neck. “I beg you, Kazu. One more chance.. that’s all I need. I won’t ruin it again… please,” his lips shivered as he begged those words. what he felt now was nothing other than painful stab. His hand was weakened by the frustration, but still he tried with all he might, hugging the man from behind trying to send the man a message, hoping for another chance, hoping that the man would never leave him.
But in the end, he received nothing as reply. It was a few seconds later Nino’s hand was on his, loosening the hug before he stood from the bed, wore back all his clothes. And here Ohno knew, he didn’t get the chance that he was hoping for. He just lost it.
Ohno couldn’t watch the man leave. It’s hurt, damn hurt to see the fact that he just lost the man. It must have been the same feeling Nino felt before. He refused to let his sight from following Nino who was leaving his house, leaving him in a matter of sense. His thought stopped when he heard the sound of the front door being closed. Once again, he couldn’t handle it.
Pulling the blanket, he covered his naked body, hoping that he will sleep so that he could forget all the pain. But indeed it wasn’t that easy.
***
Four hours, he kept staring at the empty white ceiling. No he couldn’t sleep, not when every time he tried to close his eyes and Nino’s face will be the one to appear in his dream, sending all the hurt of despair stabbing his heart again and again.
He finally understood how meaningless the life is without the one we love most. He finally understood what Nino meant before, his life was ceased to have a meaning when he was gone. What Nino felt before, he felt it now. It’s karma and he deserved it.
His mind couldn’t think straight anymore. The pain was building stronger and the only thing he could think in his mind is dying.
He removed himself from the bed, headed to the kitchen before he grabbed the knife on the counter. He just needed to do it fast as the pain he felt now was unbearable. And when he slit his wrist with one deep slit, he couldn’t tell anymore the pain he felt was from the slit on his wrist or from his broken heart.
He leaned to the wall; slid down as he flipped open his phone, trying to find a Nino pic in his phone memory. He found one; a picture of Nino and him, the one from the magazine last time. They were so close, Nino’s laugh that day played in his mind. Too bad, those happy days didn’t last forever in the end.
Blood was oozing out from the wound. His sight was getting blurry. Rather than panic, he was actually laughing; at his own stupidity. It’s fine. This was his decision after all. His life was meaningless if he can’t have Nino again in his life. Somehow, he laughed again at himself as he was thinking at how pathetic his life had been. He let the man go before, crushed his heart and now he wanted Nino back? Pathetic isn’t it? And now when he couldn’t have him anymore, all he had in his heads was it’s better for him to die. Maybe by this, he can protect Nino even from a far. Just as what he had promised before.
“Ohno-san…” a voice called for him. But he never replied to the call. His energy was draining and he was sure enough that his mind is tricking him when he heard Nino’s voice. The voice repeated his name again and again, it felt like echoing in his head. There’s no possible way Nino would come to find him again. He left. He never turned back when he left. He’s gone, isn’t he?
“Oh-chan!” the voice yelled this time. And this time, he was sure it is Nino. With the last energy he had, slowly he opened his eyes, only to see Nino looking at him in horror, rushing towards him before took him in his embrace
“Oh-chan… stupid!” Nino cursed, tears were dropping down to his cheeks, making their way down onto Ohno’s shirt.
Ohno noticed how Nino’s hand was trembling as he was holding his hand. Ohno could feel a sheet wrapping around the wound on his wrist, trying to stop the blood from losing out from the man’s body. But he had lost too much blood. His energy was drained off. His breaths were short. It’s almost time, he said to himself. He felt so sleepy, so tired. The heartbreak tired him, he needed a rest, maybe forever.
“Open you eyes, idiot! Don’t you dare!” Nino yelled to his ears. His hand was shaking as he dial the emergency number. But Ohno stopped him, holding the man’s hand to stop him from dialing the number. He could see tears on Nino’s cheek. Why are you crying, Kazu? Isn’t this what you want, kazu? I’m giving you the happiness you need, Kazu, why are you still crying? But all the words stopped inside his throat.
“Daijoubu, you’ll… be fine,” he said, his hand was finding Nino’s face, caressing it weakly, wiping away the tears on the man’s face. Gosh, if he ever did that before, maybe Nino would still be there with him, maybe they’ll leave happily.
But he didn’t. Even if they had the chance now, it was already too late for it.
“I love you, Kazu,” he said, staring the man deep into his eyes, hoping his words would reach the man’s heart. Nino’s tears fell on his cheeks, his lips shivered as he replied the man with the same words.
“I love you too, Satoshi,” he said, stuttered. “Don’t die… please,”
Ohno swore he tried to smile. But he wasn’t sure if he did. Because the only thing he could see was darkness.
******
The smell of the medicine filled his nostril as he woke up. His head felt dizzy, his hand felt so painful as he tried to move it. He tried to remember what had happened before but the more he tried, the more it felt aching. He tried to move his other hand to hold his head but it felt so heavy, as if some weight was placed on it. Someone to be exact.
He turned to his side only to see Nino sitting on the chair next to the bed, his head was on the bed while their hands were linking together. The memories came back to him. While it did hurt him, watching Nino’s sleeping face next to him eased the pain.
He kept staring at the man’s face for quite a while, until suddenly, Nino’s eyes snapped open and the man quickly removed himself from where he was. He sat straight, letting go Ohno’s hand that he’s been holding since last night.
“You’re awake,” he stated a matter of factly. Ohno nodded before they created one awkward silence between them.
The urge to have Nino again in his life resurfaced once again in his mind. He thought he had finally let it go when he decided to kill himself last time, but indeed it wasn’t that easy. But will Nino forgive him now? He was sure enough he heard the man said “I love you too, Satoshi” last time. But was it the truth? What if it’s just something to make him happy in those kinds of time and situation? Ohno never knew. But still, he’ll lose nothing if he try won’t he?
“Kazu, I-“
“Second chance, Satoshi,” Nino cut without looking at the man. He was hesitating at first, but after a while of playing with his shirt, his hand found Ohno’s, entwining their fingers together before gripping it hard trying to tell him all the hope he had in him. “Don’t ruin it. Or I’m going to kill you for real this time. And then I’ll kill myself,”
He rose up his head, his eyes meeting Ohno’s.
Ohno could see how the man’s eyes were brimming with tears. Nino’s holding up his tears, he thought. It confirmed him when he heard the man sobbed, refusing to look at him. Gripping Nino’s hand as tightly as his energy let him, he replied.
“I won’t, Kazu. And you won’t too” his lips formed a weak smile, but Ohno knew his sincerity will reach Nino.
He was wondering if it was the right time to say it again, but watching Nino biting his lips, eyes brimming with tears, Ohno know he should.
“I really love you, Kazu. I really do,”
Nino didn’t replied. Tears start falling from his eyes. But Ohno still had another thing to say,
Responding to Nino’s earlier grip, he copied the same before spoke again. “thank you... for the another chance,”
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owari desu~ sayonara~
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Date: 2015-05-17 10:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-05-18 02:27 am (UTC)thanks a lot for reading and commenting :))
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Date: 2015-05-17 11:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-05-17 11:13 am (UTC)ahem epilogue
pam-san, i second you.
*whispers senpai please consider it*
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Date: 2015-05-18 02:30 am (UTC)hahah this series is a torture for me. i'm not sure if i can come with any epilogue. but still, thanks for reading <3
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Date: 2015-05-17 11:10 am (UTC)hey it's me again.
in all honesty i hope you don't feel bored finding me again and again and again in your journal. sorry. x.x
oh.. i'm so happy reading it. i thought ohno would die. you're so nice for not killing him (though i want you to kill him and let nino live with regret #oops :p )
you know i'm enjoying this so much.
you're subarashii senpai. that panic situation is love
love it so much.
thank you for finishing this <3 thank you for making it as a sequel <3 thank you for the thrill <3
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Date: 2015-05-18 02:33 am (UTC)lol. i was crying when i wrote this, so glad it reached you. and on epilogue, i don't think i can think of any.
i read in twitter about you wanting to make a drabble on this one? do eeeeeeeeeeeetttttt!
and girl, no, i'm not bored at all with you appearing in my LJ once in a while. i love you, hv i told you that? no? there i say it XD
thanks a lot for reading this dear <3
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Date: 2015-05-17 12:28 pm (UTC)I even contemplate stop reading it. Cause hey you rarely wrote a happy end for Ohmiya. But how glad I am that I continue reading it to find OHNO DIDN'T DIE! Ohno DID NOT DIE!!
HURRAY!!! *banzai pose*
I really am glad Nino gave him a second chance, but since I look at that in Ohno pov I wish to see Nino's too. But you reach (5/5) already, so that means this is last? :'(
Quite a long journey..
Hmmm.. rather than guessing how things finally going on between them after this, I hope to read the progress too. I wonder if they got sickly honey lovey dovey. Ahhh but with all these pain, is that possible here?
Thanks Ica-san! ^ ^
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Date: 2015-05-18 02:36 am (UTC)i wish i have an idea to write for the sequel, but everytime i think of it, it will lead to angst, so i stop.
huhuh
thanks a lot for reading and commenting ne :)
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Date: 2015-05-18 01:14 pm (UTC)If it's only happy end somehow its impact is less than if it is accompanied by angst.
I admit you are really great at angst. (Idk if I should cry or cringe or smile wryly at this)
So if you manage to create an angst but with a happy end for them, well I might glue myself to you too. Lol
So far the most recent fic I love from you is the Blank Canvas for Ninomiya Kazunari one. ♡
I LOVE Ohno regretting somehow.
The thing is there are a lot of your fic about regret too. But this one Nino or Ohno did not end up with someone else so I just gotta like it. This Ohmiya ended up with someone else (male/female/ even OC ) REALLY Rubs me the wrong way.
But anyway. Thanks Ica-san! ^ ^
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Date: 2015-05-19 07:34 am (UTC)thanks a lot for reading my works. i'm not great but i'll try my best to satisfy my readers ne. thanks again :)
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Date: 2015-05-17 05:34 pm (UTC)I don't know if it's ok that I say "thank you" 'cause I made me cry but ok it means yuor fic it's "good" ohh poor Ohmiya
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Date: 2015-05-18 02:42 am (UTC)and yes, they deserved another chance. :) ohmiya ftw!!
thanks a lot for reading and commenting
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Date: 2015-05-18 03:29 am (UTC)thank u for another intense story 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
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Date: 2015-05-18 04:11 am (UTC)haaahhh 3 peoples were asking me for a sequel. but, i don't have the idea :/
huhu. thanks a lot for reading and commenting
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Date: 2015-05-18 07:52 pm (UTC)thank god ohchan didn't die.... i kind of knew that he will do that after nino left him....... OTL
thank you for writing this!!! *hugs*
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Date: 2015-05-19 07:38 am (UTC)thanks a lot for reading and commenting <3
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Date: 2015-05-21 12:46 pm (UTC)i cried for all five chapter TT^TT..how can they both is so stupidddddd..dont they know they only live once..hope no one will repeat the same mistake again TT^TT..
really great story thank you so much for making this <3333
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Date: 2015-05-23 04:18 pm (UTC)XD
they're indeed so stupid. ughh. T_T
thanks a lot for reading :))
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Date: 2015-05-28 07:17 pm (UTC)Thanks for the beautiful ending dear