I rant in a fiction
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ica_90They were friends for one year before he took it to another step and she trusted him.
He was so nice back then, being the medicine to her broken heart. He was her source of laughter, sometimes she couldn’t help from frowning whenever he made silly jokes and she pinched him hard on his arms and he would just laughed it out.
He was her everything. Her love, her smile, her laughter, her inspiration
Until one day, she found out everything was fake.
It was hurt. It’s hurt even more when she found out about the fake relationship from another girl who happened to be his real girlfriend.
She asked him that night, “why?” and he told her “there’s no reason. I never love you,”
She snickered, gripping so hard on the phone when she asked her next question. “How much did you get, for making me to fall in love with you before you decided to leave like a coward?”
“Well there were 10 people. So 50 dollars each. You can count don’t you?” he replied.
She chuckled, surprisingly she didn’t cry.
“So, 500 dollars, was that my price? That’s what you think?”
Silent. She could hear him click his tongue in annoyance at the end of the line. It’s not worth it to wait anymore. One deep breathes, she said. “Good luck with your examination,” and she ended the line.
She remembered being such a trouble that night. She was lucky to have them as her best friends. They support him throughout the night. And years. For god only know why it was so hard for her to move on.
She’s been through that phase. A phase where she pretend like he never exist in her life in the first place. But then he added her on facebook. She declined but after a while, she added him because he refused to be such a bitch.
And thing happened there that makes she removed him from his friend list. It’s funny as hell.
And not to mention, there were several occasion where they would met intentionally or coincidently. Geez. She refused to feel heartbroken again, so she set up such a wall between them. Every conversation returned with a single word.
He asked her “how are you?” and she’ll reply “fine”.
“how’s ur study,” and she responded with. “good, I guess”
“you looked nice… and ‘healthy’” he said with a laugh. She returned him a glare, before ignored him, went into the bus and ignore him completely. For god only know how heartbeat was increasing with every moment passed.
That was the last time she met him. That was two? Three? Years ago. Nah. It’s nothing to remember right?
And she thought that perhaps, he has moved on from her. No phone calls, no fb (well because she removed him already). And she guessed, it’s time to move on.
That was when she entered her second phase of moving on. Everything about him was a taboo. Even saying his name was a big no.
Her best friend helped her going through all this. They said that if she kept being mad at him, then she’ll never be able to forgive. It will be tough for her to move on. So she tried and she started to forgive.
Or so she thought.
But yesterday, another story begin.
Recovering from her sudden fever, she received a call that evening. An unknown number, she thought. And when she answered it, she smiled. That voice after all of this years, she still recognize it. But the hurt, the beating crazily heart was no longer there.
She thought she had move on.
“hey, recognize me?”
“I do,” silent. “how are you?”
“good. You?”
“I guess I’m good.” She replied. “where did you get my number?”
“somewhere,” he responded, chuckled when she snorted over his answer.
“ok then, why are you calling me?”
“nothing much. I just feel like doing it,”
“ok,”
Silent.
He asked her about everything. There were thing that she refused to answer but most of the thing he asked, she answered it sincerely. But she never bother to ask about him because well, why should she?
She barely remembered how, but all of sudden, the topic when a little weird? No, not really. But she remembered a silent moment between them, before he broke it with a question.
“I wanna ask you something,”
“Shoot it then,”
“If, if I try to make it works between us again, will you give me a chance?”
Silence.
“ha ha. What an idiot,” she replied. And he chuckled.
The topic changed and they ended the call after 30 mins.
It didn’t really bother her, or maybe she’s just denying it. But the more she talked about it, she got curious. So the next day, she went online and started stalking his twitter. There were few quotes that related directly towards her, but maybe she just imagining things.
After all, things between them before were fake right. No possi-
“She has a girlfriend,” she said as her hand stop scrolling his twitter. She chuckled. He still have that same taste in the girl he liked huh? The one after her. Beautiful girl with long straight hair. But wait. She shouldn’t say after her. They never had a relation before. According to him. A relation without love was equal to a fake relation right?
She chuckled.
“What an idiot,” she said. Though, she never knew who she was aiming her words to.
He?
Or her?
It has been almost 8 years. She wanted to move on. To you who it may concern, please, let her.
If your question last night was a way to see if she ever moved on, she has tried. But maybe not completely.
She still love you perhaps, but to be with you again, seems impossible. Because every single time the thought appear in her head, another thought came too “will he hurt me again?”
No. just no. if you’re a human, let her go. She begged you.
In the end, you're still the man who can drived her crazy
He was so nice back then, being the medicine to her broken heart. He was her source of laughter, sometimes she couldn’t help from frowning whenever he made silly jokes and she pinched him hard on his arms and he would just laughed it out.
He was her everything. Her love, her smile, her laughter, her inspiration
Until one day, she found out everything was fake.
It was hurt. It’s hurt even more when she found out about the fake relationship from another girl who happened to be his real girlfriend.
She asked him that night, “why?” and he told her “there’s no reason. I never love you,”
She snickered, gripping so hard on the phone when she asked her next question. “How much did you get, for making me to fall in love with you before you decided to leave like a coward?”
“Well there were 10 people. So 50 dollars each. You can count don’t you?” he replied.
She chuckled, surprisingly she didn’t cry.
“So, 500 dollars, was that my price? That’s what you think?”
Silent. She could hear him click his tongue in annoyance at the end of the line. It’s not worth it to wait anymore. One deep breathes, she said. “Good luck with your examination,” and she ended the line.
She remembered being such a trouble that night. She was lucky to have them as her best friends. They support him throughout the night. And years. For god only know why it was so hard for her to move on.
She’s been through that phase. A phase where she pretend like he never exist in her life in the first place. But then he added her on facebook. She declined but after a while, she added him because he refused to be such a bitch.
And thing happened there that makes she removed him from his friend list. It’s funny as hell.
And not to mention, there were several occasion where they would met intentionally or coincidently. Geez. She refused to feel heartbroken again, so she set up such a wall between them. Every conversation returned with a single word.
He asked her “how are you?” and she’ll reply “fine”.
“how’s ur study,” and she responded with. “good, I guess”
“you looked nice… and ‘healthy’” he said with a laugh. She returned him a glare, before ignored him, went into the bus and ignore him completely. For god only know how heartbeat was increasing with every moment passed.
That was the last time she met him. That was two? Three? Years ago. Nah. It’s nothing to remember right?
And she thought that perhaps, he has moved on from her. No phone calls, no fb (well because she removed him already). And she guessed, it’s time to move on.
That was when she entered her second phase of moving on. Everything about him was a taboo. Even saying his name was a big no.
Her best friend helped her going through all this. They said that if she kept being mad at him, then she’ll never be able to forgive. It will be tough for her to move on. So she tried and she started to forgive.
Or so she thought.
But yesterday, another story begin.
Recovering from her sudden fever, she received a call that evening. An unknown number, she thought. And when she answered it, she smiled. That voice after all of this years, she still recognize it. But the hurt, the beating crazily heart was no longer there.
She thought she had move on.
“hey, recognize me?”
“I do,” silent. “how are you?”
“good. You?”
“I guess I’m good.” She replied. “where did you get my number?”
“somewhere,” he responded, chuckled when she snorted over his answer.
“ok then, why are you calling me?”
“nothing much. I just feel like doing it,”
“ok,”
Silent.
He asked her about everything. There were thing that she refused to answer but most of the thing he asked, she answered it sincerely. But she never bother to ask about him because well, why should she?
She barely remembered how, but all of sudden, the topic when a little weird? No, not really. But she remembered a silent moment between them, before he broke it with a question.
“I wanna ask you something,”
“Shoot it then,”
“If, if I try to make it works between us again, will you give me a chance?”
Silence.
“ha ha. What an idiot,” she replied. And he chuckled.
The topic changed and they ended the call after 30 mins.
It didn’t really bother her, or maybe she’s just denying it. But the more she talked about it, she got curious. So the next day, she went online and started stalking his twitter. There were few quotes that related directly towards her, but maybe she just imagining things.
After all, things between them before were fake right. No possi-
“She has a girlfriend,” she said as her hand stop scrolling his twitter. She chuckled. He still have that same taste in the girl he liked huh? The one after her. Beautiful girl with long straight hair. But wait. She shouldn’t say after her. They never had a relation before. According to him. A relation without love was equal to a fake relation right?
She chuckled.
“What an idiot,” she said. Though, she never knew who she was aiming her words to.
He?
Or her?
It has been almost 8 years. She wanted to move on. To you who it may concern, please, let her.
If your question last night was a way to see if she ever moved on, she has tried. But maybe not completely.
She still love you perhaps, but to be with you again, seems impossible. Because every single time the thought appear in her head, another thought came too “will he hurt me again?”
No. just no. if you’re a human, let her go. She begged you.
In the end, you're still the man who can drived her crazy
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Date: 2015-09-18 09:56 pm (UTC)But we will find him!!
Ganbatte!! <3
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Date: 2015-09-19 06:25 am (UTC)thanks a lot for the encourage words. <3
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Date: 2015-09-19 03:28 pm (UTC)