Let me rant
Aug. 13th, 2016 11:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ica_90i know that maybe whatever i'll write will backfire in any possible way but for some reason i need to apology towards my past and future.
About Fanfictions.
I'm not sure if anyone actually read my post before but once, I ranted about people not leaving comment on my fic. i was such an ass before. and for that I am so sorry that it had offend some people.
Of course, good fics deserved all those comments in which mine are not even near any of those qualities and i refused to make anymore comment about that. At this point, i start to feel that maybe it's fine to not having anymore comments coming in. So it's ok if you read my fic and not leaving comment. Really, I mean it. Not even a sarcasm should be interpreted in this post.
I accept my defeat.
I kept telling myself to stop writing fic. stop. just stop because my emotion, my words, my ideas, i just can't pour them into a whole full story. and it hurts me when i read it and it didn't reach my expectation. i had took a break, trying to write again and it still didn't work. it pissed me off and before i know it, the thing that i once love to do, has became a thing that i really depressed doing it.
I'm sorry to all the readers of my current on going fic. The truth is i have next chapter done, betaed. but then, i'm stuck on the next chapter and i can't find my way out of it. i finished the epilogue though. i have the ending ready in my head, wanting to write it but the more i write it, the more i feel like moving in a circle.
i'm not sure if i will be able to write it. I can't guarantee that the fic will finish.
I am emotionless.
Not only for my fic. but also for other fic written by other fic writers. to be honest, i feel it tough for me to read and process the story, when it was easier before. even fic written by awesome authors before, i find it tough to enjoy it. and it seems like not a lot of fic manage to grab my attention nowadays.
somehow, it's safe for me to say i'm a little dying inside. lol
here, I would like to apology towards all the writers who wrote fics, and i read it but lot leaving any comment. i feel like i'm faking my sincerity if i ever leave one on a fic that i couldn't enjoy.
You guys are awesome. I'm sure you are. this problem is from my part. Thank you for all the wonderful fic that you guys had wrote.
that's all from me. thank you.
About Fanfictions.
I'm not sure if anyone actually read my post before but once, I ranted about people not leaving comment on my fic. i was such an ass before. and for that I am so sorry that it had offend some people.
Of course, good fics deserved all those comments in which mine are not even near any of those qualities and i refused to make anymore comment about that. At this point, i start to feel that maybe it's fine to not having anymore comments coming in. So it's ok if you read my fic and not leaving comment. Really, I mean it. Not even a sarcasm should be interpreted in this post.
I accept my defeat.
I kept telling myself to stop writing fic. stop. just stop because my emotion, my words, my ideas, i just can't pour them into a whole full story. and it hurts me when i read it and it didn't reach my expectation. i had took a break, trying to write again and it still didn't work. it pissed me off and before i know it, the thing that i once love to do, has became a thing that i really depressed doing it.
I'm sorry to all the readers of my current on going fic. The truth is i have next chapter done, betaed. but then, i'm stuck on the next chapter and i can't find my way out of it. i finished the epilogue though. i have the ending ready in my head, wanting to write it but the more i write it, the more i feel like moving in a circle.
i'm not sure if i will be able to write it. I can't guarantee that the fic will finish.
I am emotionless.
Not only for my fic. but also for other fic written by other fic writers. to be honest, i feel it tough for me to read and process the story, when it was easier before. even fic written by awesome authors before, i find it tough to enjoy it. and it seems like not a lot of fic manage to grab my attention nowadays.
somehow, it's safe for me to say i'm a little dying inside. lol
here, I would like to apology towards all the writers who wrote fics, and i read it but lot leaving any comment. i feel like i'm faking my sincerity if i ever leave one on a fic that i couldn't enjoy.
You guys are awesome. I'm sure you are. this problem is from my part. Thank you for all the wonderful fic that you guys had wrote.
that's all from me. thank you.
