Dec. 15th, 2014

ica_90: (flirt ohmiya)
Title: Sequence of Love
Author: ica_90
Pairing: Sakuraiba, [friendship] Sakumiya, [hint of] Ohmiya
Rating: PG-13
Summary : just for 3 simple reason of love, he just want to be the happiness of the man.
Disclaimer: they belong to themselves. I just own the silly ideas.
Note: unbeta.

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ica_90: (flirt ohmiya)
i feel like i lost now. i don't know what to do, what i should do or what i want to do. it's depressing when i can't come out with a solution or doing something to begin.

i bought a book. i want to use it as my diary for 2015. eventually i want to start writing my ambitions in 5 years in that book. but everytime i want to write one, i just don't get the chance. wrong. i just don't know what i want. and seriously, it saddened me.

i know i've been saying this again and again. i've been losing my feeling. i don't know what's the definition of sad, happy anymore. all i have if frustrated. i wanna write and i wanna expressed everything in my writing, but my emotions doesn't let me. in the end, the thing i've wrote sounded so plain.

no one was saying my writing is a trash. at least not yet. but deep inside me, i know how worst the quality is. it saddened me how the things that i once love to do became a thing that i feel sad to do. 3 fics in my draft, and i can't make it according to what i've been imagine.

i want to stop writing. i seriously have that feeling. but in the end, i still write. did people understand how mess up my life now? it's a burden, but i refuse to leave. ugh.

i feel like an attention seeker now. i'm sorry if people ever feel me doing that. i'm pissed off. i'm frustrated. or maybe i'm sad with my life. i'm not happy. i'm not satisfied. ugh. it's torturing. seriously! funny how at first this post is juts to say how frustrated i am with my life, and i end it with fanfic. see how it related?

no. don't mind me. i'm fine. no. i lie.

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extra: to all fanfic writers who i've been reading their fics. i'm sorry for reading and not left even a comment. i'm not sure of the reason why though but everytime i tried to leave one, it will lead me to an error page. kinda piss off -.-" and with my condition and works now, i don't really have time to re-visit the entry again. uggh.. i just need extra time.

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